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this is one of the hardest and happiest posts for me to make so bear with me... <3
the picture on the left is me at my most unhealthy mentally and physically, i was 225lbs (102kg), unhappy, hated life, no job, ate food and snacked 24/7, hadnt sniffed a gym in 3-4 years, stayed strictly inside all day being chronically online and played video games for over 12 hours a day
I kept telling myself I was happy and that I didnt care what I looked like... but i did, and i hated myself and got very depressed to the point of I hated everything, to the point of almost losing myself from this earth entirely
I took some time offline and quit streaming, but everytime I tried to come back to streaming something was missing, my mental was slowly getting better but what? it was my body... I am EXTREMELY self conscious about my body to the point where I body shame myself quite badly and never got over that hump
I decided to get healthier and focus on me and myself, I hit the gym VERY HARD and pushed myself harder than I ever have.
through this time I have not only learned to love my body and the way I look, dropped 50lbs to 175lbs (80kg), learned to push past my limits and always have my own back, but i also am in the best place mentally I have ever been in.
If anybody is struggling with anything body postivity wise please DM me or just know that you not only look amazing but you can hit those goals you set for yourself, If I can do it so can you.
TLDR i locked tf in see you all soon ♥️


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