I fucked up again after the 5.4k withdrawal. Last time, I said I wouldn’t trade from Thursday onward because I was busy with some private work, but I still broke the rule and traded anyway. I risked too much, ignored all my rules, and lost my funded account and then another funded account, and two challenge accounts that were almost cleared.
Then I made another dumb mistake by resetting the funded accounts and paying $650 for both accounts. I immediately blew the first funded account. With the second one, I managed to bring it up to $2.3k, but the next day I gave almost everything back, leaving only $200 before blowing the account completely.
That affected me psychologically a lot. After that, I reduced my risk significantly and slowly brought the funded account back from $200 to $2.4k. Today, I sent the withdrawal request.
I really need to keep my risk low because whenever I increase it, I end up repeating the same mistakes again and again.
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