@Evan | Trading Psychology & Discipline

I lost $30,000 in crypto over 4 years. Not because the market was against me. Because I kept making the same mistakes. Here's everything I did wrong 🧵

"My decision making is bad" is a sharper read than most people manage on a scary day — that's the actual signal, not the market. One honest thing though: "back to funded soooo bad" is the exact urgency that blows evals in the first place. The rush to get it back is the same impulse that lost it. Tomorrow's not for redemption — it's just for trading clean. The funded part takes care of itself when the decision-making does.

Today was scary At first I thought: the market was bad today The real issue: I want to be back to funded soooo BAD That my decision making is bad Blew 2 evals today

What I actually write down after every trade. It's three lines. Not the P&L. Not a chart screenshot. Three questions: Did I take this setup, or did I force it? Did I honor my stop, or move it? What was I feeling right before I clicked? That's it. Most days it takes 30 seconds. But over a month, those three lines tell me something my account balance never could: my losing days and my rule-breaking days are almost always the same days. The P&L tells you what happened. The journal tells you why. One of those you can fix. The other you can only refresh.

Averaging down feels like conviction. It's really just refusing to be wrong, with extra steps. The loss was never the problem. Not accepting it is what turns one bad trade into a bad month.

By the time it stopped, I wasn't trading anymore. I was holding a position several times bigger than anything I'd planned, praying instead of managing. One clean stop-out would've been a normal red day. I'd turned it into weeks of damage.

The trade that taught me what averaging down actually costs. I was long DOGE, already red. My plan said: stop here. I didn't. 🧵

I stopped counting winning trades. Now I track one thing: did I break a rule today? A day I followed every rule and still lost is a good day. A day I broke a rule and got lucky is a bad one — it just hasn’t billed me yet. The market decides the trade. I decide if I kept my rules.

Sorry about the account — the overtrading sting is real. One honest thing from experience, take it or leave it: "come back and chase an even bigger size up" is the exact thought that turns one blown account into two. The size-up after a loss feels like the comeback, but it's usually the same impulse that blew it, just wearing a confident face. Come back, but come back the same size — let the discipline be the edge, not the size.

Fuck trading 😒 Fuck greenness 😭 Fuck overtrading 😭💔 Not the update I wanted to share, but I blew my Moneta funded account today 😪💔. It hurts because of the time, effort, and discipline I put into getting funded. But this isn't the end of the journey. I'll learn from my mistakes, come back stronger, and chase an even bigger scale up. 🤧

The "early wins gave me confidence, then I blew multiple accounts weeks later" line is the whole trap in one sentence — those first wins teach you the wrong lesson and charge tuition for it later. What stands out here isn't the comeback, it's that you name it as behavior and emotion, not bad setups. That's the part most people never get to. Solid post.

I sucked at trading for 3 years straight. When I started, I knew absolutely nothing about the markets. Zero. I had no idea how hard trading really was. My expectations were completely unrealistic. I genuinely thought I could make millions just by pressing a few buttons. Looking back, it sounds crazy. Like many beginners, I started with some early wins on a crypto platform. Those gains gave me confidence, until I blew multiple accounts just weeks later. Over the years, I've experienced almost every emotion this journey can throw at you. Desperation mixed with brief moments of hope. Anxiety that showed up more often than I ever wanted. Months spent at rock bottom, questioning myself, wondering if I was truly cut out for this game. And every time I thought I had finally figured it out, trading humbled me again with another blown account, another lesson, another reality check. But I'm still here. Still climbing. Still learning. Still working every day to become a better trader, a better thinker, and a better version of myself. Progress isn't always visible. Sometimes it looks like failure. Sometimes it feels like you're moving backward. But if you keep showing up, keep learning, and keep improving, even by 1%, those small wins compound. So if you're in the trenches right now, know this: You're not alone. Read this twice if you need to. Clear your mind. Get back to work. Your future is brighter than you think. Keep going, legend.

Respect for stepping away since April — that pause is more than most people manage. One honest thought from experience: "this'll make me or sink me" is the exact framing that blew my accounts. When one trade carries that much weight, it's the size and the emotion picking it, not the edge. A trade shouldn't be able to make or sink you — that's the whole lesson the blown account was trying to teach.

@calvinfroedge Yeah basically I'm waiting until the first couple days of July and then going all in on bno and obe calls dated for Oct/Nov I blew up my degen account back in April and haven't traded since. This'll either make me or sink me.

My largest oil holding is cheaper than when the war started by about 5% I was wrong If I had bowed out a week into the war completely and not held anything, I would have made a lot more money

A winning trade I didn't get to keep isn't a discipline failure. It's the cost of having discipline at all.

The same rule that stopped me flat today keeps a good entry from becoming a blown account on a hundred other days. You don't get to keep only the times it pays off.

The rule cost me the trade this week. I'd run it again tomorrow. Here's what happened. 🧵

@NjoguNjoroge7 The "big lot on a small account" combo is revenge trading's favorite move — it promises to fix everything in one trade and almost always does the opposite. The size is the tell: the bigger it feels, the more it's the emotion sizing the position, not the plan.

Tried revenge trading with big lot size on my small account and whoops😅

Sorry you're here — that "all gone before payout" feeling is brutal. One thing that helped me: the urge to immediately prove you "can do it again" is the same impulse that blew the accounts, just wearing a hopeful face. Step away from the screen first. The accounts are recoverable later; rebuilding from tilt right now usually just digs deeper.

@EdwardXLreal @forexblog9ja I mistakenly did over Trading and revenge trading and lost 2 funded accounts 😭 @EdwardXLreal @GoatFunded Feel like shit Both got funded and I've lost before payout day And now I've got nothing. @EdwardXLreal It's all gone I can do it again Help, plz @EdwardXLreal Thanks

Goatfunded Denied a $ payout after crushing 5%+ profit 19-year-old funded trader snrmuna just dropped a raw, no-excuses update on his Goat Funded Trader experience. He hit the profit target cleanly with tight stops under 1% risk… but his payout was rejected for breaching the prop firm’s margin rule. High position sizing (e.g. 0.1 lots on a $5k account) ate up ~86% of available margin — even though overall risk looked solid. He owns it 100%, calls it a brutal but valuable lesson, and is already tweaking his strategy for the next one. This is a trader taking full responsibility for his actions. @GoatFunded