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hi guys new #shedtwt #edtwt intro here basically back to square one! really looking for friends moots/on here please reach out!!! i’m 18 and in college :) i love twin peaks ethel cain and catholicism (interest not religious) i will tw any sh block me if you don’t like edtwt!

@ghostivyleaves i agree sometimes get stuck in this mindset but the best to do is to shut eyes and try not to think, 25% success rate of letting yourself sleep/move on

I said goodnight but I lied I cannot stop oscillating between "ok yeah kinda skinny" and "fat fucking bitch you are not skinny" my mind is a war ground

the mosh pit at Ethel Cain shows

@samispurging i meant uncle idk why i said cousin

@samispurging me explaining model land by tyra banks to my 58 year old cousin then playing the song

Introducing 50 year old man to FKA twigs never let a gay on aux

@millyb0nes anyone know where everyone went?

what happened to all the interesting threads on here? or do i just miss them😭

hopefully if this works i’ll post bc before and after with stats! to get over my fear of posting both of those on the internet ! how hard can it be it’s only like a month and a half

going to loose 30lbs by august 17th, cal restriction to 300 with no c/s i belive ! let’s see if i can keep myself accountable for this long. i am big enough to be able to do this reasonably quickly :) #summer30

i have a horrible pain in my left side omg like when i touch it it hurts so bad it’s like stabbing pain i can’t sleep

@seraphiccpixie hmm that’s actually really interesting ,,

@bonedmarrows it’s where your body holds onto any fluids/liquids to keep itself regulated iirc, in the uk as u probably know there is a heatwave so idk if i have drank enough water or my body is retaining it to keep me cool idkkk

let’s play a game called: is it water retention or am i just fat

i dreamt the earth broke open, and the beast called out snuck into bed with me and left with you in its mouth and i was left screaming i weep for you i weep for you

@frillmeup #those who remember

How can someone so young sing words so sad?

I hate when people pretend like they’re good people and do nothing wrong ever

@ghostivyleaves the worth directly tied to my weight thoughts #metoo

my weight is acting like this because I am fundamentally evil

@jiiwooo_leemkxb gave up on that mentality when nikacado avacado AND lizzo lost weight b4 me

guys i cannot be fatter than trisha paytas. Love her DOOOWWWN but i just can’t be fatter im sorry

@anemianamia trueeee #there can only be one

@bonedmarrows he was pmo even though i lowk am he can’t be 😤

bro might be more disordered than me lowk

@maddiescals it’s normal to have more cravings on ur period cuz hormones and stuff 😕 pls don’t beat yourself up over it

#edrtwt , feeling like a failure bcs i binged on my period

@Vanilla_choc00 i agree

Can we jump this guy iam not kidding

@ethelsgardenias no cuz it’s genuinely insane my brain is working so slow i can’t hear anyone esp cuz i started a new job and i just look #dumb

restricting at work is genuinely hell i want to die