I don't need someone who tells me 'stop overthinking.' I need someone who says, 'I understand why you do.' -A Calm That Feels Like Disappearance: I have reached a level of calm that no longer feels like peace, but something closer to surrender. I see everything clearly, yet I choose only to watch as if life is happening in front of me, not within me. As if I've become a stranger to things I once fought so hard for, and even to the version of myself that used to feel deeply, resist, and care. Now, I just observe without desire, without anger, without even enough sadness to remind me I'm still alive. And perhaps that's the most dangerous part—to lose feeling so quietly that you mistake it for calm. So don't let your silence become a slow disappearance; either return to feeling, or admit you're fading I don't know... is it emotional numbness, or have I become indifferent to everything, or is it due to getting used to trauma? I hope to overcome everything I'm going through quickly so I can return to my normal life again... My dear friends, last night was terrifying for us in northern Gaza. The tanks advanced a lot; they reached within 1.5 to 2 kilometers of my house. All night they were firing at the Al-Tuffah neighborhood and retreated a little while ago.. I wonder how long we will continue to live in fear and tension, under the threat of returning to war at any moment.. Today, the crossings were closed again after being open for several days, leaving us to face our fate.. The commercial crossings will remain closed to aid and food supplies until further notice... This creates chaos and price instability at a time when we are struggling to survive... Flour prices have risen significantly, and there are long queues at bakeries to get bread... and many, many more crises... This is the current situation in Gaza at this time, and this is the latest update... My dear friends, I am struggling to protect the cats that survived the genocide in Gaza with me, and also to protect my family.. I have 17 cats at the shelter who survived with me... and they always need food and veterinary care... I would be very grateful for your support for those angels.. Please don't forget that the black market is very ruthless and prices have increased dramatically... I appreciate anything... your support helps me move forward paypal.me/animalrescue703 I'm very Grateful to those who have accompanied me through all my good and bad, joyful and dull, talkative and silent, strong and weak versions, and who are still with me despite all this.
