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first recovery meal. obvi i only ate half. feeling anxious.

tryna show the strawberries in there but there’s like 3 finely chopped lol

@starvedsprout always been curious to why u post a lot of random food pics lol

@dazed_vaxni like broooo let me be skinny

@ester2luvss cuz why did i order STEAMED vegetables at a restaurant once and there was oil on it… 🫩

why do they need to douse everything in oil 🤢

@x4rd7 no fr lmao i’m just like wtv dude.

@ester2luvss your parents do not know what they are doing. they want you to heal but they are doing so much very very wrong

told my dad i bp once (im not telling him ts daily) and he’s like YOU CANT DO SHIT RIGHT UR ALWAYS FUCKING UP lmfaooo okay

@jadeyxj we have to prep with gloves 😒

@ester2luvss why do you have gloves on

@meeekina3 everything

what is something that triggers a binge?

@pooppooppoopypo my mom was like hey i told dad to call insurance send him the info so i did that and he fucking yelled at me and ?? idek? i’m not even sure what i’m supposed to say? like okay? i didn’t tell him to call, i already called and they’re just giving me a hard time. idk man im confused

@ester2luvss i’m so sorry :( i’m here if you need to talk

i’m dead asf my dad called me to yell at me to tell me my ed is my fault?😭 okay? yeah? and..?

@oattmilklatte i’m actually banned from my parents house until i recover 🫩🫩

parents' house or jail

@intore08 it’s just “resort to anorexia” or “me too” 🫩

@ester2luvss Like no one has any good advice, only for anorexia and it’s mad annoying. Bruh I want to stop please ugh but im addicted I feel disgusting

everybody talks about anorexia recovery but not bulimia. oh my god i cannot stop binge purge PLEASE help

anyone else expirence this?: i’ll be at PHP (or res, wtv) and can eat the meal and be full but i coke home and eat the same or similar and am not full. why?

@celinamonroll @moonsfaeriies i just bend over and it all comes out 🫩

@ester2luvss @moonsfaeriies i dont think im ever going to recover from either now that purging is so easy and normal for me

@whipplikedcream THIS!!!! MMMM OMFFFGGGGG

@ester2luvss It’s literally so fucking horrible because you’re experiencing extreme hunger but can’t quit it omg

@sakurachoux great!! 🫩

@ester2luvss I went 3 weeks without b/ping once and Ya , nothing changes the cycle never stops😊😊😊

@vivabominable @Niko_sk2x_shed oh ik i’d def abuse it but shh 🤫

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss tbf they could prolly be abused but idk🥲

@Zoalfcedancers LMAOO

out of pocket comment from my dietician. Girl this is the best flavor by quest bffr

@iiguxo2 ❤️

@ester2luvss It sucks 😐 I keep going I don't want to purge again, then I overeat or binge whatever and then I just have to :( I'm stuck in a cycle now that I can't get out off

so sorry you all relate but i’m relieved we’re all living the same struggle cus i felt so alone :/