ester🥕

first recovery meal. obvi i only ate half. feeling anxious.

@riyaisstarved wish i had the restrictive type i feel like that’s sm easier to recover from (easier said than done but ykwim)

@ester2luvss it’s so difficult to get out of, i think the best thing you can do is just constantly keep your mind preoccupied and have a set meal plan? idk

everybody talks about anorexia recovery but not bulimia. oh my god i cannot stop binge purge PLEASE help

@vivabominable @Niko_sk2x_shed no, can’t take any stimulants cus i’m technically anorexic. but like i’m literally bulimic idek. psychiatrists don’t believe me ig cus im uw

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss lowkey real i just eat to get dopamine😭😭 its not even my actual hunger i just crave stimulation, do u take meds?

@enteralite @Niko_sk2x_shed how to anorexia 😭😭😭

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss Me too and whT i find is the only thing that helps is anorexia

@Anais86387876 i try that and then inevitably binge 💀

@ester2luvss Ppl on here be talking abt bulimia recovery js to get better at restricting

@lunooculus it’s like it’s luring me lmfao like “heyyy bishhh come hereee 😏”

@ester2luvss I feel you. I was brushing my teeth after I snacked and gagged and I looked at the toilet and couldn’t help it 😭 like it’s too compelling

i don’t want to recover idec anymore i want this shit to fucking kill me. i don’t even wanna go back home either cus i hate living w my parents. guess i have to be homeless

@mattysnowpuff strawberries are NOT high calorie what😭😭

lemme get this straight eggs = high in cal grapes = high in cal bananas = high in cal rice cakes = high in cal rice = high in cal apples = high in cal strawberries = high in cal oats = high in cal 🫩 #edtwt

@Niko_sk2x_shed cus i also have ADHD…

@ester2luvss I feel like my binging is adhd-related, and that's going to be hell to stop. Even before restricting and purging, I've been binging for years and couldn't stop despite many attempts over the years. I honestly have no idea how I'm ever going to recover

@Niko_sk2x_shed fuck😒😭

@blurry_ideal im literally in php and cannot stop. i do not wanna go back to res tho idfk i always find a way. i found a way to bp in my last res. this is hell. my ed is so sneaky even cus i don’t want it to be

@ester2luvss so sorry ester 🫂 i can imagine what you’re doing is really difficult i hope you are ok

@angxlofmydrxams LMAOOO

@ester2luvss MY OATMEAL WITH COCOA POWDER😭😭😭

Today’s eats !!! 😋 Grandma bought me like 2kg of strawberries and well… 🌚 fruit are not safe around me ALSO smth different than buckwheat for lunch😜 (I can’t help it I love buckwheat sm) the amount of curry and garlic in this rice omg…

@svrnova_ @SkyePringle1 the strawberries in that bag are heaven on earth

@SkyePringle1 i bought these today and they were so yummy!! the whole bag was 60 cals🤤

I kinda wanna make an “ED” drawer filled with low calorie and high protein snacks any recommendations?

@SkyePringle1 the birthday cake and lemon cake quest bar MUST be added. my top two

@Lylylimia real

I understand why people on edtwt are scared of seasoning and don’t season their food I did the same thing because if I made it taste too good I’d just binge😒

yummy dinner

@sproutishealing i was lowk being v blunt and was like “give me shit i will eat otherwise i will pour supp on the floor” and he was just fed up so fair enough. didn’t complete but ate more later on

@ester2luvss 🫂 am so sorry ester. here for you.

lunch was a shitshow so there’s no pics. dietician told me to LEAVE

girl (dinner) snack !

tonight’s dinner