raye☕️

intro :) (not new ed) ☆ raye ☆ he/him🏳️‍⚧️ ☆ 19 y/o college student ☆ AN-b/p ? ☆ love nature, art, and rock music ☆ a fat fucking chud that loves to lurk but oomfs are awesome❤️ #moothunt #edtwt

I really am clinging on to the fact that my bulimia could be a lot worse. I am still keeping down some food outside of this and I don't purge everything I eat, which I've felt shame for but now I'm happy that I'm not worse

I am going to try again🙌 I think I will have two meals so I'm less tempted to purge my dinner

laxatives about to kick in the middle of my shift

@Juno_Eatz I appreciate you saying that🫶

@ghostivyleaves I'm sorry.. it is probably muscle then, since it's more dense. U look very sick 🙁

am I crazy I feel like my bmi is too high to be able to do this

@Juno_Eatz DUDE I am going crazy everyone is saying that but I genuinely have TWO whole scales that display the same weight is genuinely all in my fat freaking calves

@ghostivyleaves I'm not going to lie. I think your BMI is lower than you think

oh I can't stop crying why is this my life fuck bulimia fuck weight fuck mental illness but thank you laxatives

I'm never smoking again I just cried to my friend about wanting to die then ate animal crackers from the trash and uncooked instant noodles. I am peak human

and it's not even gonna be a good purge because it was unplanned so I probably won't even get out half! fuck!!!

btw I binged again like 800 calories I don't wanna purge oh I don't wanna but I have to there's no way I can keep it down

on that medical marijuana daydreaming about an alternate life without ever having an eating disorder

hi guys I'm high if I comment odd things under your posts it is just my whimsical mind at play

@soleilastarves omg lemon and blueberry is such a good combo I think french toast will win the vote but consider wisely...

which one … they all sound yummy

@tauntifer goodnight hawke I hope your dreams are full of unicorns

okai good night I love u!

@Etta_coffeebabe that is so scary, I'm she had a good reaction, I hope it really goes best for you❤️

I am actually shaking right now I just confessed everything to my mom after she caught me purging again and I am so scared holy shit I don't know how to deal with this

not having a good day. btw I ended up binging not that much before I purged my dinner. I'm scared I left behind more that I can manage god I'm so fat

@Kitleeeee thank you!!😁

@ghostivyleaves Btw your artstyle is so awesomesauce and looks very very cool. Idk just. Yeah

I am trying my best to sustain a portion of myself

@Kitleeeee that's what I hope :( I wish you luck on trying to fight this. I just want a small sliver of who I was before all of this but addiction is so hard

@ghostivyleaves I’m in the same boat as you. 52 hrs free and it’s everything is meaningless and boring but it makes me hopeful that if we continue this way and try to renew interests in old hobbies they’ll become important to us once again and b/p will become less desirable

oh my god I am terrified to go see my family over the summer they all better say how skinny I am or I'm shooting up this damn farm

@puke0al did you bring enough for the class I'm getting hungry

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