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#shedtwt #jiraitwt #moothunt im mi, genderfluid afab-any/all, 2008 from the us, wasian but no culture </3 bed ⇄ ednos, sh recovery high sw&cw but LOCKING IN! sufferer of bpd( insufferable at times) im cool i swear... please acknowledge me;i want friends !

@Beav4Dealer21 @63_cals youd be better off buying plain kernels rather than rising off buttered ones. Its cheaper and more customizable in flavour/kcals.

@63_cals Wait does this work I can just rinse the kernels Off …??

The true best anas are on reddit bro what is this

@tenortape well not to self report but how does this even happen

@lalaloopsycals @bugwithablog yeah "anorexic cult (no eating)" probably wasnt the best descriptor for sure... I thought it was a good and informative video though besides that!

@widapsiin @bugwithablog i’ve never heard of that that’s insane😭 maybe i’ll watch it one day, most people reading the caption of the video probably thought the same thing as i did so i wish he added more info in it about that rather than just saying anorexic cult but im glad he made a video to educate

eating disorders is the only mental disorder that’s not taken seriously as if it’s a choice to have it. fym “cult (no eating)” like maybe i’m dramatic but that’s such an insensitive statement to say about a mental disorder that real people struggle with

@lalaloopsycals @bugwithablog yeah no i understand that. The no eating was definitely unnecessary. It was a while ago that i watched it but it was like an actual cult based oneither christian or mormon doctrine and the leaders talked about how strving/striving for thinness was glory to god or worship orsmthg

@widapsiin @bugwithablog ohh i didn’t know that omg that’s scary, i feel like he should’ve worded the caption better tho

@lalaloopsycals @bugwithablog i watched this a while ago, it was actually a cult that had a focus on ed culture, not him just calling anorexics a cult

@bugwithablog i didn’t watch the video so idk i just feel like it’s mean to call it a cult

@nymfettes i get you pinkie im random too sometimes

i colored it hehhehehe

@nymfettes this looks great

being open/honest with irls:

im so glad literally everyone saw the same image (or thought the same general idea) that i did

im not loved by anyone. not truly loved. i can be helpful, i can be nice, i can be easy to treat when im carrying your issue. but you dont actually love me. you wouldnt love me if i wasnt of use to you.

everyday i realise i have less and less friends, they lie to me, they never invite me anywhere, they dont know what kinda stuff i like and do in my free time. they just dont mind being around me but thats it, they dont notice when im gone. they wouldnt even miss me

Hate feeling like im too much and never enough at the same time

fallé como estudiante fallé como amiga fallé como pareja fallé como persona fallé en todo

@mafuyukin1 does eyebrow/beauty razor count as razor blade?

#shtwt what was your first thing to use to sh?

i couldve wrote it down, i couldve called someone, i couldve slept, i couldve drawn, i couldve played games, i couldve walked, i couldve ate, i couldve bathed why didnt i try to stop myself?

i want to quit, i want to quit, i want to quit i was quitting! why did i do this im so foolish im so foolish im so foolish

there goes all my progress and that damn feeling of release, its so addictive. The craving was starting to go away a bit but now ik itll be so difficult to stop again

im so stupid i freaking relapsed im such an idiot ik recovery isnt linear nor perfect and blah blah blah but i just feel like im back to square one im bad at lying so i stay clean n not have to lie and to wear skirts, shorts, and swimwear and not be a burden on others. i fked up

"I want someone to notice" as soon as someone notices I start acting distant and like everything is fine.