jack 🤍

speaking true words advances the plot of life

god i recognize what you have done for me yesterday but i need it again today

@itinerantfog log off for a month and cry. and then read @univrsw3th4rt s blog where she writes about her contact lenses or something and be so moved and touched by the amount of sense it makes, as to find a new hope for humanity in the darkness. at least thats what i did

alright at least half the content I see on the tl is ai generated. no I didn’t check. it’s obvious. not sure what is to be done about this. probably nothing. play the tiny violin for the people

@kramerposts some of my posts that got hundreds of likes were just me being a victim about something

There’s an interesting asymmetry I notice where ideas shaped like “there is nothing you can do to improve a situation” are extremely popular in modern culture and ideas shaped like “here are practical things you might try to improve a situation” are met with crickets or hostility

@lemonautzest maybe. the new algo is truly different this time but the golden age has always been over. it's baked into the definition looking back and saying the past was so much better is a very popular pastime because it is easier than creating anew from the present

Checking in ~1 year later: Is the golden age of Twitter over guys?

@buridansridge thank you. important message. it's the sensitives who need to relay this message to each other too

It annoys me that heightened sensitivity is often pathologised by mainstream culture, just swarmed and riddled with medical jargon - a myriad of ways to layer stigma onto those who are born with perceptual gifts, which are often accompanied by high intelligence. This very constitution enables such outliers to extrapolate and perceive in a manner most cannot even fathom, for sensitivity is the ability to see through all senses. It is the gift of sight, and when integrated in full, the senses work synergistically and operate coherently at a near-prophetic level of pattern recognition. Instead of celebrating the difference in their constellation, that there was never anything wrong with these individuals, or teaching such souls how to navigate this inverted world, they are met with compounding, layered psychological and spiritual condemnation in an attempt to force them into nonsensical, grossly simplified paradigms created for conformity, not growth. Thus, the initial and ongoing crucible for sensitive outliers is usually related to resilience and boundaries, to resist constant systemic conditioning, to not feel shame or guilt for all that they are, and to not contort themselves out of sheer consideration for others. Their becoming is one of true self-honouring - of acknowledging everything they have been and everything they are, despite often learning the hard way that others do not operate from a place of goodwill, truth, and integrity - all of which seems absurdly obvious, yet is undoubtedly lacking in the very world that claims to make sense.

@lemonautzest good project! harder than it looks!

I am undertaking the project of making myself legible to the world. Thanks for being a part of that process by reading this post!

@turninthewind definitely! for me too! i certainly felt like i was the only one in the room feeling what i was feeling. and i had just an inkling that discussion was not welcome hahah

@winter___fall you're welcome! it's nice to hear I'm not the only one maybe noticing and trying to put some kind of words to this type of experience

a few weeks ago I went to ecstatic dancing that was held in a church I at least felt like I had a very somatic and embodied experience

meditation can easily turn into a humbleness contest. there's all sorts of milestones and leaderboards to compare your humbleness with others prayer requires nothing less than true humility every time. there is no way to feel proud of spending time on your knees asking for help

@turninthewind wow, thank you for sharing this. puts words to an experience i had hearing a presbyterian service yesterday the vibe was definitely “take leave of your senses and be controlled”

and I don't find it nice, or joyful, or good I find it pretty unsettling and unnerving, somatically and pretty hard to be around ppl when they are doing that, tbh

talking *from* myself is the place i've been looking for. it does not come naturally to me; my usual survival strategy is to read the energy of what is in front of me and try to become what it wants starting from myself is fairly radical

i don't have to talk *about* myself; but i want to talk from myself. from my own experience. a lot of tweet-shaped thoughts that come into my head, are not really from my perspective, they are just the impersonal x dot com zeitgeist trying to perpetuate itself thru me

i have such an unimaginably immense amount to say about this topic but this is all i can manage right now doing my best to get over myself enough to have a creative process that results in output

there's a type of impersonal, (self-less) non-fiction that has a parasitic nature it feels like it's addressed directly to you, but leaves you feeling drained and disempowered because this type of content does not require a self to produce, it is easily perpetuated by bots

@mashiroplzxo yesss, that is good to hear and thank you 😌

@winter___fall im glad these resonate with you! it is really tough, shedding my old self and finding my new self and losing people who resonated with my old self... hardest thing ive ever done, but so so worth it life filled with love these days from myself and others, keep going friend 🫶

i wrote some notes today while the kiddos were testing writing by hand feels so honest i should do it more

@mashiroplzxo this is so real i relate hard to this too i started teaching myself to write from scratch in 2019. i also used invisibility instead of words to survive prior to that

@mashiroplzxo this is so real thank u for writing and sharing i'm 29 and it is a tough age in this way and i really relate to this

@callanable yes! i find it easy to forget

@winter___fall I need to remember this, you can let things breathe, don't need to be fully known immediately (in fact you cannot)

i realized the value of having “talking points” it means i can talk without the pressure to say the entire thing and nail it all down. it is assumed that there is more to say, at a later time. how relieving

@callanable well then, you may be a human ass being, not subject to one side of a tweet that neatly divides people into two groups for engagement

what if you're embarrassed by both?

@mashiroplzxo :)

@winter___fall missed u :)

i'd like to start embarrassing myself in plain english on here again. it's simply an important piece of what i'm here to do