ENDRASTA

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ ㅤW͟I͟T͟H͟I͟N͟ LIFE'S LABYRINTH, PATHS UNTOLD, ㅤㅤCHOICE, COMPASS, GUIDES THE BOLD ㅤㅤI͟N͟ E͟V͟E͟R͟Y͟ T͟U͟R͟N͟, ㅤㅤA CHANCE TO FIND ㅤㅤTHE LIFE WE SHAPE WITHIN OUR MIND ᅠ ᅠᅠ

“Nanti dikabari ya, Janitra. Saya harus menghadap ke pawang-pawangnya Tisha dulu, mengajukan proposal. Daftar penawarannya masih disusun, biar ngga ada yang terlewat.”

⠀ Would you be my love? And I will be your guard I'll never lose my way I'll never makе you cry I'm never gonna let you facе the night alone ⠀

⠀ Would you be my rose? Then I will be your thorn I'm never gonna break I'll never let you fade I'm never gonna leave you shiver in the storm @heavensenigma ⠀

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ I want to hold your hand. I want to be in your arms. I want to listen to every breath you take. I want to feel you around. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ No one told me happy feelings might cause you to stay awake longer. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

Ask for more, don't stop asking me for more.

A little before her birthday, she said yes to a lifetime. Thank you for letting me grow to be a better person by your side. In the future, there will only be better things for you, and for us. I love you, Pratisha, always.

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ He did nothing but be there for me, and his presence meant everything. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ “I’m here,” he repeated many times, almost as if it were the only mantra that could restore my sanity. I cried for several minutes before the feeling slowly faded, and I fell asleep in his arms. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ When he saw the tears rolling down my cheeks, I could clearly see his panic. He quickly took me in and hugged me without asking any questions. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ I quickly got to my feet and rushed to Endrasta’s place. I desperately rang the bell, and he opened the door with a confused expression. He still had his glasses on, and I was sure he was in the middle of working on something. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ What was this feeling? I hate it. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ In less than two hours, I was suddenly awakened. It felt as if everything was closing in on me. I felt scared and uneasy. I took a deep breath, but instead of calming down, tears began streaming down my cheeks. I was frightened. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ I don’t usually fall asleep right after coming home from work, but today was different. I got home at 8 PM and went straight to bed without even changing my clothes—just wiped off my makeup and brushed my teeth. ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ

⠀ 𝘈𝘩, 𝘢𝘬𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘶𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘶𝘬𝘯𝘺𝘢 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘪 𝘭𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘱 𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪. ⠀

⠀ Aku tersenyum melihat Pratisha dan sisa air mata di wajahnya, sibuk membuka bungkusan berisi makan malam yang aku beli. Ah, dia lapar rupanya. “Ayo makan.” Ajakannya membuat aku yang sejak tadi berdiri langsung menghampiri. ⠀

⠀ Hari ini, untuk pertama kalinya aku membuat perempuanku bersedih. Hari ini, untuk pertama kalinya aku membuat perempuanku kecewa. ⠀