Aaaahron

So we know now we're moving somewhere far more remote... Been regularly driving 45-60 out of the city to inspect rentals we can afford. None of them have dishwashers, garages or sheds... Honestly it feels like we're downgrading in so many ways, but I'm hoping we find peace there

Every time I get sad about not having money, I feel like I fall down a rabbithole of trying to make life easier some other way. Our bank account is in the minuses again, but it's okay because at least we can keep track of what we're spending better, right? 😂

Continuing our journey of replacing all of the convenience apps in our life with self-hosted subscription-free alternatives, I've added @grocy_erp to our home server. This is possibly the most helpful one so far (just need to pitch some time into adding our hand written recipes)

Thanks again to everyone who reached out/reaches out whenever I have my meltdowns like this... I know I'll be fine. I know I'll work this out. I'm just so sick of wasting my life trying to catch up to where I feel I'm meant to be.

Every time I position myself and try to fix my life, I hit another speed bump and I just feel so alone. I don't have a support network in Australia anymore, Amanda isn't angry at me but when we share a bank account it's not like she can help. How do people do this?!

I'm sick of the price rises. I'm sick of the algorithms getting worse, from recommending music that I was interested in to playing the same stuff on repeat. It took four months of preparing (when we got the price rise email). The most important stuff has been purchased.

Today was an important day. We finally canned our last subscription. I've been consistently subscribed to some form of music service since 2010(?), but apart from 6 months with Apple Music or 3 with Deezer, it's mostly been @Spotify. Goodbye, FOREVER. Not for now.

@thecrisin I'm hoping we'll get a quick answer like last time when it was benign, and it'll be good news and we can all move on 😅

@AaaahRon Oh isn’t it difficult to get this pet family member stuff into context. Their lives go by so much quicker than ours and we don’t want to put them through unnecessary stress. Is Nala happy or uncomfortable? Do you know if these lumps are sinister or benign. many considerations x

Found another lump on Nala... This time it's her front leg and it's visible. Not sure how long it's been there because it's similar in shape and size to a regular toe pad. It's so hard to say this but, owners of elder cats, how far would you take this?

@spacecdtv There's one nearby that accepts Afterpay and Vetpay (which just seems like Afterpay with a different name) which we were planning on doing for the initial appointment/removal/removal biopsy. I guess if she needs anything long term I'll start looking into longer term loans 😅

@AaaahRon I'd do as much as I possibly can. Do any vets do payment plans?

@SuperNintendad Hey man, I don't know if this is helpful or not, but if you need a stranger to play games with or chat to, please reach out, breakups suck and you don't have to be alone unless you want to be <3

My mental Health has been struggling this week. Just got broken up with from my partner of 5 years. going for a walk to help get some fresh air. I'll either take a break from everything or you'll just see so much more of me than you want.

Will someone please at least fake laugh at my pun. It's so dumb but it made me chuckle.

@luxiiebee I made so many friends thanks to MC... I miss those days 😭

I'm feeling nostalgic for minecraft? like when we'd have our own servers and we'd all play together and build our houses n stuff 😭😭 I'm this 👌 close to making my own

Would anyone else have assumed this was a collaboration (a weird one at that) and not two artists performing at two separate events? Or do you think normally? 😂 Now I want someone to rap over orchestral music for hours on end.

...That just means I need to find something else to change. Not use it as an excuse to keep failing. I'm so grateful I have the mental energy to be able to do this all now. I hope that if i don't in the future, I'll at least be able to be kind to myself in those moments.

Today I looked at the changes I've made in the past month. My blood glucose is back under control, I exercise most days (if only for 30 minutes) and I've been able to keep up with chores and household responsibilities. Life is still hard and so insanely expensive but...

"You can make excuses, or you can make changes." A friend of my parents ~10 years ago at a BBQ said this to me. When I tried to create another excuse for not succeeding, he added "I don't need to know, you know whether you're doing your best or not."

@addzeeyy Man I've just finished another week and amen 😅 I have to keep adding new things or I drop off so hard.

Losing weight / exercising with adhd is such a bitch, results are slow, so no instant reward/results . So I never stick to it for long 😅😅😓