Vivi

[OC] Gyuki I have a ref 😭 it's taken to long for me to do this q.q #artmoots #oc

@LievVT The curse of white shirts 😆

The day I choose to wear a white shirt I fukin bleed and stain it

@LievVT Despite everything, you're still here and that's a great accomplishment 💕 It's difficult and hard, maybe it all feels impossible, but you've taken it step by step day by day. And that's a great strength too 💖

Yk, so many people being revealed as sex offenders lately and having criminal histories makes me think we should all be more open and honest with the shit we do. And I'm too honest a person to keep quiet, I need my community to know who they follow I personally have never been arrested nor do I have a criminal record, even less sex related because I'm asexual. But as a minor I did have a lot of personal issues that made me do things I deeply regret to this day and affect my personal relationships now Ever since I was born I've had death surrounding me, and I witnessed a murder in my own family with my own eyes when I was 3. I experienced 3 deaths at that early age. This made me have very complex thoughts about life, death and relationships. I was also abused by my father, he beat me up once so badly I lost sight in one eye and I was manipulated into believing nobody loved me, and the things he did were what I deserved. I was also often locked in a dirty room where there were roaches and now I have a phobia. So I've always had a flawed view on connection and behaviour, as well as on myself I was more violent when I was younger, still have my moments, but I do my best to contain it and I've never actually harmed anybody aside from one case when I was 10 years old and I tried strangling my little brother, and also attempted to kill my father around the same age but I was too scared. I also stole and caused trouble between people on purpose so they'd fight, I still don't know why I did that it just felt good As a teenager I became more bitter about everything and got ingrained deep in my brain I'm just not a good person. I had a moment when I just accepted it, and I was treated by everyone around me like it. So I thought "Fuck it" and just did what I thought was in my nature. Again, I've never physically harmed anybody, I prefered punching things or myself, because I just don't want to be violent, tho I did get into fights I behaved like nobody mattered, never cared for the things I said or if it hurt anybody. I got into fights, I skipped school, went out at night with a group of other teens like me. But most we did was graffiti, smoke pot (which I didn't do because I don't like it), break some stuff or burn stuff (never private properties or anything big). I just felt unimportant and like I was never meant to exist, or like love and good things were just never meant for me. I was betrayed multiple times and abandoned for being "a bad person". I felt misunderstood and I kept experiencing more death of those I loved like my cat too which was at the time the only creature who I felt cared And then I met someone who looked at me different, who made me think I may not be so bad and was patient. Never treated me like I was a jerk, and just saw the good even when I was an ass. And for a little moment in my life I thought maybe there was a chance for me, to have something good. But I lost that person too, life took that away I ended up in a psych ward later because I just became dangerous to myself and others. In there I had an experience that relaxed me in a way, made me open my mind a bit and ever since then I've been trying to work on myself and get better. I also started having a deeper friendship with who became my best friend (and who left me recently), but at the time he was the only one who unserstood, and I felt like I had at least one person and that was enough Now I'm just a person with no spark. Trying to be better but with no strength. I still feel like I'm not a good person, like I don't deserve anything good, for one reason or another. Cause even when I try I just fail. And I don't want to hurt those I care for, so I either stay away or avoid making new connections. I act harsh, and I may not be a good friend at times. I feel cursed That's why I made my character the way it is. I feel like I'm no good, but I want to be good. I was just made into what I am and it's hard to undo it

bigger than me... #ironlung

[Zappy] #ocart #digital

@LievVT Yay! 🎊

YAAAAY 5k SANKYUUU✨ Preparing the free Vtuber model (Art + rig) raffle now 🤍🖤 It'll be a collaboration with my friend @DreamyDiino, she'll be doing the rigging

He's always so angry lol #art #oc

Grokに勝てるウォーターマーク完成‼️ 取ろうとすると3枚目みたいになるので使用不可に近いかと‼️ 条件 ・いいねのみ ・AI立ち絵使用不可 フォローRT励みにます✨🙏 リプにギガファイル便貼っておくのでそこからダウンロードしてください‼️ 期限切れてたらリプで教えて‼️ #フリー素材 #IRIAM素材

The beginning of this year And the end of the year #EndOfYear #art

@LievVT Looking great! 💕

Progress

@valplaysmc Ah the happy doggo and angry cat duo 😆

🐕🐈‍⬛ #oc #ocart #artmoots #art

@valplaysmc Just a big teddy bear 🥰

Big boi #oc #ocart #originalcharacter #artmoots

@LievVT What a cutie bby 💕

Me with my guard dog aah (Weighs 1.5kg and has no eyes)

@LievVT 😱 not me mum

@Abyssalroz Cheese of truth says ur mum

When I'm drunk I crave sliced cheese

@LievVT Curiosity will find the oreo 😆

I am curious by nature And for that reason I touched the tip of a candle and my finger is now black

He's taking your knowledge, one glance at a time. Doodle of ze oreo heh #artgalievry

@LievVT Yay! Have fun with it! 🎊

I decided I'm gonna be making my own future model at my own pace as I work on comms There's various reasons why I'm doing this: 1. The experience I had with the artist who made my current model wasn't the best fit for me. Even though I appreciate the work and the product is pretty amazing, I wanted to work on future projects and the way the project was carried didn't really please me enough to continue 2. Now that I'm making models more professionally, I want to practice and have my own model made by myself to learn what I can do and break limits in both art and rigging. I wanna use myself as a lab rat but also have the chance to give myself future outfits, toggles and work on myself as I go 3. I fukin say so kek

@LievVT Pretty 💖

Commission for @ArctiumLappis ✨ #VGen #VGenComm

@xppenca 💕

🎨 Artists! Share Your Art! No AI art, please! #xppen #art #artist #artshare

@_VGen_ Hi #Vgen I've been wanting to try this out- so I hope I can give it a shot with my art. 💕 Portfolio: x.com/Abyssalroz Vgen: vgen.co/Abyssalroz

Dec 15-21 #VGenCode Artists+ Application: ✨ COMMENT TO APPLY ✨ 1. 2-4 past works 2. Link(s) to your commission site + portfolio 3. Link your VGen (code not required to sign up) 💚 LIKE to enable more codes (10 codes / 50 likes) Closing in 24h. See QRT for details ⤵︎ x.com/_VGen_/status/…