ᴀʟᴇxɪᴀ - #282

Hey everyone, I'm gonna make this relatively short and sweet so! I'm retiring all my public twitters, and moving to the two accounts you see below. An option for two platforms for the sake of keeping people around.

I do hope people will garner some interest for them honestly, but this is the Internet and twitter no less, I'm basically shooting my near entire following in the foot doing this. I'll be logging out shortly after this fact, so thank you all for your time. :3

A lot of you know I've been dancing with the idea of stepping down for ages, just to relapse, and this is kinda routine atp- But I truly want this to be over now, I gain no more joy over Alexia, I don't wish to write her, I just wanna write my own characters.

Hey everyone, I'm gonna make this relatively short and sweet so! I'm retiring all my public twitters, and moving to the two accounts you see below. An option for two platforms for the sake of keeping people around.

// lowkey? I might just be done with Alexia outright, retire her, genuinely

@BoomBurstBat // tldr; it would be insane levels of blackmail for a group of people that have done so before, because I'm (sorta???) well known outside of this space Those characters are a direct link to that

@AlexiaRewritten // Strongest in the universe, right? I haven't seen anything I'm particularly bothered by.

// also I just might be entirely out of interest when it comes to writing nsfw!

@BoomBurstBat // I think you already have my private actually which, yeah, has said characters- They're just too much of a risk to have on a public account, cause lord knows people find out about it

@AlexiaRewritten // *shrugs* I'd follow you to a new character. It IS a vicious cycle, though most things in life are."

@BoomBurstBat // I don't really think the passion is gonna return for her I cant lie, cause there's an infinite loop of having it and losing it for Alexia I'd much rather my following take interest in characters I wanna write, but that opens a can of worms for interest from others, and for me

@AlexiaRewritten // Then take a breather is my best suggestion. Wait until the passion returns. It's what's best for you and for those you write with. It's more interesting to write with someone who is passionate, and similarly not fair to force yourself to write in spite of lacking that passion.

@BoomBurstBat // It's true, I shouldn't be pushing myself, aaand yet would it be strange to say writing Alexia outright always feels like pushing?? I might just like, have lost interest in her entirely-

@AlexiaRewritten // Then write SFW, or take a break overall! I understand burnout, you shouldn't push yourself to do something you don't want to when it comes to hobbies.

// Now, they're basically two separate things really, but I truly think I'm god awful at actual major investment rps, and better at one shot crack rps? This is basically speculation at my brain and thought process, of which I don't understand anyways but, yeah??

// A bit silent doesn't mean fully so, let me get some more thoughts out I think I'm genuinely not cut out for my current way of rping. We get something going, a few replies happen, I fizzle out- However; when I do RPs elsewhere, I literally have zero issues??

// Gonna be a bit silent for a while, wanted to give a heads up instead of outright vanishing

@G3MWH0R3 // That it will be indeed

@AlexiaRewritten [🪽] It's still nsfw?

// If anyone doooes wanna suggest someone, I'm mainly looking for someone that I can at least portray as soft and innocent yknow? Looking for a character that is a bit of a polar opposite to Alexia's corruption ordeal, sooooo

// Morning all, to say I slept would be a major understatement- Now that I've actually rested, I feel a lot better from yesterday, but, I'm gonna consider another account for my own sanity Muse ideas? I got like, basically none tbh, and I'm lookin for some! Alexia will remain!

// I might clock out any moment btw, I just wanna thank people for all the words so far- I have kinda been losing my marbles with a lot going on, so hopefully after some rest, I'm not going insane

@tiedsecretary // I'd have to get a reminder of said topic tbh, but I also fully get what you mean- I do enjoy writing and talking too! Minus when I'm kinda like you know, going insane or having insane spikes of motivation- cause then I ain't really doing a lot am I-

@AlexiaRewritten / That’s why I was a bit dismissive about the last Discord topic. You’re a fantastic writer, I just have some, I guess they’d be called abandonment issues? I’m scared that going further with that idea would not entirely end well. I love writing and talking with you though!

// Alright I'm gonna ask it, is the love for Alexia fading? I notice there isn't much interactions on posts, which kinda tells me a fair few things, I think? I dunno, maybe I need to change something up

@tiedsecretary // I honestly can't really deny that one, and its one of those things I want to work on most- I do also really apologise for the fact, it makes me feel horrifically guilty, and i don't quite know what actually causes it

@AlexiaRewritten / If you want an honest answer — I struggle being interested in things when I don’t expect it to last, and any time we try to write you kinda explosively disappear.

// You know it's also realistic that I'm just losing my mind, and the thought of fading interest is killing me I'm kinda just?? afraid, to have nobody to talk to, I'm already losing enough outside of this place man

// In a way it's very reflective of my own personality, and in that sense, kinda explains a little why it doesn't feel great always So yeah, it might just stop being posted and instead opt in for an entire Alexia focus, exploring her character, rather than concepts

// For starters; it can be awfully tiring, I feel inclined to force Alexia to be more dominating with it, if it doesn't meet a certain criteria, it just kinda ends up sounding lame- At the end of the day, I kinda just like writing her as an idiot type, goofy, stupid?

// Now allow me a moment to kinda express what I've been thinking- I think, there's a real solid world where I stop posting Corruption on the TL, and stick to developing Alexia more. That doesn't mean the removal of it outright, just, moreso a DM only thing, yknow?