Ali

"غداً من الممكن أن ننتحر الآن علينا أن نحب" - رياض الصالح الحسين

@7otaHassan @iiiazhar طيب لو اتقبلته زي ما هو عشان يتغير عشانك مش معناها كدا انت ما اتقبلته زي ما هو؟

@iiiazhar تقبلو زي ما هو وهو ح يتغير عشانك

مفروض تغير شخصية الزول الانت معاه ولا تتقبله زي ماهو؟

I will keep talking rest assured, but it's gonna be more genuine I hope

I think that's because most of the dust has fallen off these stones and now I have to hit them harder and harder everytime to find something very little to say, I just don't think I have any energy left to wrestle with, I think it's best if I just sit alone with these stones.

I want to confess something pethatic that I do a lot, I wrestle with my thoughts on purpose to create some kind of friction's leftover that I can express out loud, like hitting a stone with another stone so you can have a dust to spread Infront of someone else,

The stones metaphor is a very solid NSFW material tho

I wish I spent more time with you

I'm so happy that I'm feeling something rn I hope I wake up with this feeling

Ever think of a long scenario in your head and then someone casually appears into that scenario and the whole thing just fall apart over your chest so you just suffocate and have a panic attack? P.s the scenario happens in the future and the person who showed up is already dead.

And what if I do that every day at 9 am? It's not like I masturbate before that, even if I did it wouldn't be that crazy honestly

Do I sometimes fantasize about having a girlfriend who sings "make you feel my love" to me to help me sleep? Yes I do but that doesn't mean I'm crazy or desperate or anything it's just normal fantasy

@21mohadil انت احسن زول في العالم

@AliMusa018 How to be grape? How can I love when im afraid to fall?

I have died every fucking day waiting for you

Suicidal thoughts don’t cross my mind as often now as they did when I was a child, but I’m afraid of losing even th... → As much as I wanna be able to give you a sense of direction in these times, I also know the limitations of my words... onvo.me/AliMusa018/msg…

DM me if you're interested

I'm thinking of starting a support group here in Egypt for people who are experiencing suicidal ideation, just a space for venting