Am I going to go solo to the science museum on my day off or will I wake up and just not go, find out Thursday morning on the next episode of 'what will the miserable prick do today'
If you are motivated by a wish to help on the basis of kindness, compassion and respect, then you can do any kind of work, in any field, and function more effectively with less fear or worry, not being afraid of what others think or whether you will ultimately reach your goal.