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I was asked how I stay completely unbothered through people flaming me for being a girl in game, people insulting my appearance, people calling me a man, etc, so I will share my secret for the girlies
I used to think that if I was better at the game, they wouldn't flame me, or that if I was prettier, nobody would call me ugly, or tell me I'm a man or say i look like a man. And when these things happen it feels like your fault!! But over the years, as I got better and better at games, hit the highest rank, and even competed as a pro, it never stopped. And as I got prettier and my voice became prettier and I put more effort into my appearance, it also never stopped!!
I realized that no matter how good at the game i am, no matter how beautiful I am, no matter how much I pass or how similar I am to c1s women, these people will still say those terrible things. And that's depressing, but also freeing in a way!!
Aramori is a North American champion in marvel rivals and people still say she's carried. I'm a top 500 dps player and people still tell me to get on support. Margot robbie gets transvestigated. These people just spew hate no matter how perfect you may be, so don't ever feel like it's your fault.
People ask me what's wrong with my voice, they say I sound like a man trying to sound like a woman, but on a TikTok where they didn't know it was eskay, there's thousands of comments talking about how pretty my voice is. People say I'm ugly, or look like a man, but everything I experience in real life says otherwise, and on dating apps every single right swipe is a match 💀 these people will make up anything to try and bother you!! Find security, know that they'll say it no matter what, and you can be free!!
That isn't to say it doesn't get to me sometimes. I'll play terribly if I'm going negative and someone starts going off about how women can't be good at games. But after the games over, I just get really angry and want to get better to prove them wrong. I climbed from bronze in valorant to immortal 3 because of spite!! And for years i went through a cycle of building up my confidence, turning on facecam and getting it completely destroyed, spending weeks thinking I'm so ugly I shouldn't go outside because people will have to look at me, and then building it back up again. But once I realized theyll spew hatred no matter what, and as more and more experiences changed the way I see myself, gave me confidence, and showed me the holes in what these people were saying, i became more resistant!! I haven't been broken since January 2024, my longest streak ever 😁
have a wonderful day
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