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I grew up in the eastern part of Nigeria, just a regular boy trying to understand the world around me. But around the age of 10, I started noticing something I couldn’t explain. While others talked about liking girls, I found myself feeling differently. I was drawn to the same gender, and it confused me deeply. At that age, I didn’t even know what sexuality meant—I just knew something felt “off.”
I convinced myself it was a phase, something that would go away. But as the years passed, it didn’t. Instead, the feelings became stronger. Fear took over. I thought something was wrong with me, something that needed to be fixed. So I turned to what I knew best—I prayed. I fasted. I went from one church to another, crying and begging God to “change” me. I made promises, desperate ones, hoping that one day I would wake up different.
I even forced myself into a relationship with a girl, trying to prove to myself that I could be “normal.” But deep down, I knew I was lying—to her and to myself. Nothing worked. No prayer, no fasting, no effort could take these feelings away.
For over 10 years, I fought a battle within myself. It was exhausting.
Everything changed when I got admission into the University of Port Harcourt. For the first time, I met people who felt exactly the way I did. I wasn’t alone. That realization changed everything.
Slowly, I stopped fighting. I started listening to myself. I began to accept who I truly am.
Today, I live in peace. I am no longer at war with myself. I have embraced my identity, and I am finally free. I enjoyed it more with my boyfriend and do not listen to anyone telling me about deliverance because it never worked for me. What do you think? Do you know any pastor that can deliver me with assurance?🌈
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