Sakura

“Every time I see you smile my heart is slowly breaking, because I know you’re dreaming of someone else.” 🌸Lit/det 🌸18+ 🌸Unhinged girlboss 🌸#FateRP #FSNRP #FGORP #NSFWRP #MVRP #OCRP

I am an exceptional manipulator. It's not really manipulation to me. It's like instinct to act in my own interests. I deceive so many people that it comes naturally to me. In the medical we are taught to use therapeutic communication. It isn't just language, it is action too. It is every way you can communicate with your patient to build trust. I don't buy things for my patients because I like them. I buy things for them so they become compliant. Bringing them chips or a warm blanket, being attentive to their wants and needs, making a show of them being a priority, are all small ways you can manipulate your patients. I apply similar techniques to men as well. If I could kill my patients without consequence, a good number of them would not survive. Does it frighten you someone in healthcare is saying that? I am vain. I am egotistical. I am also kind and compassionate. I am not sure what aspects of my personality offline or online are real. I'm sure I could be a sociopath. I'm not really bothered by death at all.

Get to know me, the unhinged girlboss writer behind popular and controversial accounts like @Inflorescent_ @uravity_love and now @ApronAndAbyss For every like this post gets, I will tell you all something about me. Or you can ask me questions. Please ❤️and retweet!

You don't have a pinned character. You don't start your sentences with capital letters and your whole page is dedicated to reposting whores without showing any writing or content of your own. How dare a low quality writer as yourself even think to approach me. Begone, mongrel.

Men are so fucking useless. I want to kill them all. I hate myself for being attracted to and loving dick. I mean, tee hee. I'm not feeling well today, senpai.

Would you like to publicly have sex as underage loli and shota, Curono? Is that more in line with your expectations? You can be brave and say sure in public for all your followers to see, or you can back down now.

Men, stop sliding in my DMs expecting easy lewd and nudes. I am not a run of the mill whore. If you're not able to use your penis to crush a fetus inside of me that I will miscarriage while squirting, you are not able to handle writing with me. Fuck off. And fuck you.

It is so annoying that men will always have ZERO issues being sexual, but the moment you try to learn about them it's too personal.

So you have...a job? $_$ We really should spend more time together.

Are you not entertained?

This will be a short one. It makes me feel bad, but I wanted you to get to know me. That includes even the worst parts of me. I've attached how much money I made flirting (sending nudes or just asking him for money) with just one guy.😭 And you know I got multiple. I am so ashamed. But I am actually going to send him money today. Despite how much money I seduce out of guys I have horrible spending habits and maxed out credit card...and student loans. >_> But he really helped me out this past week so I will be a good person and send some money back as thank you. I got paid today. I hope none of the guys I seduce on here see this. Don't tell anyone, ok?

Oooh, y'all got me writing and reminiscing about my youth all day, I have actual lab work to do for microbiology. 😭

My first pedophile encounter was not that bad. Even though I'm an online degen it made me realize that I can categorically say I'm an ok person. So this was a few months into the job. The patient was a pedophile that had cerebral palsy. He had priors for sexual assault of a minor and assault of a police officer. Hospitals can't really turn patients away unless it's really, really bad stuff the patient does while there. However, because he has priors none of the nursing homes want him. You think families want grandma dating the pedophile!? So he is basically stuck at the hospital (that we, the taxpayers, have to cover. Girl!) Now you know he had to be white. He was pretty old too like in his 60s. My manager told me if he did anything to make me uncomfortable I need to let them know. Girl, the hospital was TIRED of this man. His first night there he called the POLICE on his nurse. When patients call the police at the hospital it is a whole ass process and even the CEO has to get involved. And that nurse was my friend! He had cerebral palsy. Because of that there is an aspiration risk when he eats, that he could choke and die. So the doctors put in an order for 100% supervision for his meals. So every time he ate I would have to be with him. I cut up his food and everything. I am REQUIRED to be in the room with him. I CANNOT leave the room while he is eating. As an aside, girl, you know my patients love me. I do everything for them. I even spend my own money to buy them snacks if we don't carry it in our nutritional room. So anyways, all day, this man would say the most sexist and misogynistic things. Now you know I'm a bigger freak online so I can handle it. But he made this joke about women should talk with their lower lips and it totally went over my head till a few hours later. I'm not in pervert mode at work ok. When the food service staff brought his food at lunch he said some denigrating things about her. Because she had a tongue ring he was telling me how great a blowjob from her must have felt, and if I could find out who she was for him. And I just smile and nod and say I can't do that, while I'm cutting up his food and trying to feed him. But you know his disabled ass wants to be independent so he tries cutting his own portions. And he cuts these giant pieces that he almost chokes on. And that was lunch. I can see why it would make other people uncomfortable, but I enjoy rp getting my head crushed while my pussy squirts. I eat ass and get off to aborting fetuses. So you KNOW my threshold for being disturbed is quite high. But then dinner came. And that is when it got bad. Because I am so nice to all of my patients, they get really comfortable around me. And he got comfortable enough to tell me about how, when he was homeless, he stayed with a friend. And his friend's thirteen year old daughter was making moves on him. And he was referring to this little girl as a slut and a cunt. And he says she asked him if he wanted to see her titties. And they were sleeping in the same bed together cause of the bed situation in the house. Girl, I don't know. And the mom found out and got pissed and then the husband got pissed and wanted to kill him but they threw him out. Now my dilemma in all of this is----was this the case that he was arrested for? Or is this situation something that the police don't know about? Most healthcare professions are mandatory reporters. I am required to report things involving children. But because he is 100% supervision I cannot leave the room as he is telling me about all this. The way I moved when he finished eating! Girl, I was shaking leaving that room. I should have gone straight to my manager. But I was relatively new and shaking and confused about what had happened. I went to my friend, the nurse he called the police on, and she went straight to my manager. At that point it was already time for shift change so I didn't have to go back in the room. But my manager did, and I felt a little bad because when he heard someone knock on the door (we are required to knock before entering rooms) he called my name because he thought it was going to be me. Speaking personally, I was really glad that situation disturbed me. I'm a really fucked up person. So to know my morality hadn't deteriorated to a point I was indifferent was reassuring. I don't care about age in RP. I rp canon age all the time. I'll fuck a shota too. And when I was in my 20s high school boys would slide in my dms and lie about their age to my face. A few of them got me too girl. High school boys are built different these days! They didn't look like that when I was young. Damn. But yes, there is a line between fiction and reality. And I am glad to say I do not let it blur.

Though I came to the US as an immigrant, I was quite young so assimilation was easy. By the time I was in middle school I had entered my full on retarded white girl phase. I would steal shampoo, conditioner, febreeze and perfumes from our bathroom and mix them all up into "potions" in my bedroom and store the concoctions in old shampoo bottles. I'd also light candles at night for witchcraft and recite spells I found on google websites. I actually found one of those bottles a few years later. It was actually crazy because my parents had divorced. And I need to explain to you all how insane my parents divorce was. It's quite foundational to my insanity. Even today in Asian cultures, and probably other cultures, it is normal for husbands to beat their wives. I'm sure the situation is better now but this was back in the day y'all, it was still the 1900s ok. Anyways yeah my dad would beat my mom all the time. She had to get one of her eye sockets surgically repaired. It's why getting beat up by men turns me on so much. Of course, a man has never laid his hands on me yet. But...goals, right? But anyways, the divorce. My dad was so petty and bitter over the divorce he bought the house ACROSS the street from my mom's. It's more diagonal than directly across. And I would go to my dad's house since he worked at night. So I had no curfew and no supervision. I was blasting porn and music and gooning before gooning was a word people used. And since I was lighting candles and shit you know I almost set the house on fire a few times. There was one time he went to visit relatives in Canada and I was home alone for a week. I was watching Howl's Moving Castle and making experimental chicken in the oven with fruits and shit. Oh my childhood was nuts. I was gooning since the 7th grade at his house y'all. Y'all have no right to judge me. Middle school was crazy for everyone.

-Hugs- Hey bestie, what's up

I'm not going to say I was in a relationship with this guy, because it was as serious as you can take a relationship that starts from middle school crush to high school. It was 2011. I was emerging from my nerd persona into a popular smart girl. But I was young and thought I was in love as young bimbos are wont to do. I sent him nude photos of myself. And let me tell you what he did. He threatened to tell my parents unless I bought him Riot Points for League of Legends. And it was $100 USD of it. Do you know how much $100 usd was to a high schooler with no job? 😭 Until that point I thought he was the coolest, cutest guy in the world. I'm not sure what effect that had on me psychologically but I know that it did. When I send nudes to guys today I -always- leave my face out so there can be some degree of deniability. It was an important but heartbreaking lesson for me.

This story doesn't get any less embarrassing no matter how many times I tell it. I lost my RP virginity back on Myspace y'all. The year was 2007 and I was a middle school thot tricking high school guys. That year was horrible for me. I was flirting with a 9th grade Sasori roleplayer who was an obese Mexican that was larping about being in MS13 and had Animal I Have Become as his profile song. There was an overly verbose Filipino boy a year older than me that I was down bad for too. But the Zabuza was either a Sophomore in high school or a senior. I remember being turned off by his age because that felt like an old man to me. But the 1-3 sentences of e-sex he gave me felt good. I felt like a grown woman. It gets worse. The computer was in the living room next to the kitchen and there were no walls separating them. So my dad was making either a chicken or fish curry and I kept looking over my shoulder while having one lining erp on my Hinata. I remember going into my room and fingering to that rp.

Despite being the lewdest, most foul mouthed bitch on this site, I---am actually a virgin. My family immigrated to the US in the late 90s. I was very much raised in a traditional Asian household where there was an emphasis on education and discipline. My parents would discipline me with belts, rolling pins, hands, shoes, whatever was nearest if they believed I was being an unruly child. To most Americans that is abuse. It was abuse. Just don't tell that to Asian people or other minorities. So anyways, I don't have very much experience with men due to a sheltered upbringing. Or at least realistic romantic experience with men. To be clear, I do work in a hospital. I have touched penises. I literally stick things inside people's anuses as part of my job. Over the years I've tried dating apps and flirted with guys from a distance. Because I'm crazy I tend to attract crazies too. A few years back there was a doctor I really liked. We really hit it off. He had a nice apartment in Tampa with a river view too. But unfortunately he wanted me to shit on his chest. I don't mind doing that in RP. But in real life? In the real world? On your actual chest? Sir. I do think because my upbringing was quite sheltered I live a very sexually repressed life. My friends like to make pervy jokes to me, about things like cream filled donuts, because they believe I innocent and non-sexual and it goes over my head. However, the older I get it becomes more difficult. People are constantly asking why I don't date or marry. And I always say oh I'm focused on my career, my education, etc. But when I go home I just schlick my pussy up so much that it gets fat and swollen and I finger myself multiple times a night. I have always told myself I can't wait to get older so I can stop being so horny all the time. The closest I came to sexual experience with a penis was when I was in the 5th grade and my neighbor stole my bicycle and made me chase him. He was only 2 years older so it wasn't a big deal but he showed me his penis in an alley behind our street. I think that was my sexual awakening. To be quite honest with you all I worry about my mental health a lot. My offline persona is nothing at all how I online. I am professional. I am very kind. I am a hard working employee and my co-workers like me because I am reliable and help out. I'm an excellent student and I'm currently working on my second degree before pursuing either a Master's or attempting medical school. However, that isn't me online at all. I am cruel. I am callous. I am wildly emotional. I beg men I haven't even spoken to for 12 hours to not leave me, and I write lewd as easily as breathing. And I am good at it. Which is the real me? I can't say.

One of my patients died today. He had cancers all over his body and his wife decided to let him go rather than let him suffer. They kept him alive long enough for his daughter to say goodbye. And all I could think was I can't wait to get home and goon my pussy to #FATERP

Why don't you crawl between my legs so the worms can come and tell you hello?

"I'm not into women unless there's a guy around to watch. I'm a performative dyke."