I want to write a list, a list of all my favourite things- things I say constantly to deaf ears. I’m tired of waiting for people to ask what I like. I want to scream it until they all know. I’m going to write it all down. In case I die. So at least someone- anyone might read it.
Here I stand. far away from everything I knew.
Far away from the chaos.
From the destructive path I tore as I burned.
I think back to who I was,
Burning others as my flesh melted off the bone.
Why bother.
Issues with mothers
You were a girl who struggled.
You picked up smoking at work,
It tasted bad but it helped you cope.
Now I am a girl who is struggling.
A girl who misses her mother,
Smoking out the window in the morning.
Just like you did, mom