Ars Versus

@xbunyq Maybe you should consider going after someone who doesn't collect thousands of dms from other girls. That might perhaps help. I don't know, I'm just an observer.

Am I always destined to be abandoned when someone prettier or has more novelty comes along? Don't say Im special and pretend like you're not also in 2791832 other girls dms. I just want to stop getting hurt and tricked.

@SazawaShiro I really hope you're able to get some sleep soon, you need your rest Shiro

I have gotten like no sleep. I am under so much stress I do believe I will simply combust. I have burst into tears about three times now and still have not fallen asleep. I’m so tired but any time I get a wink of sleep something happens.

@CeceilCerko There are actually games for the PS2 named ObsCure. There's two of them, I'm not sure if that's obscure enough for you but just in case you didn't know about them, they're pretty neat.

If you love obscure horror, I need your help! 😩

@SazawaShiro Amazing

Can't be bothered to do shading for a meme

@itsCakeChan Ask yourself this, are you trying to find self worth in the approval of others? Is there nothing about yourself that you find worthy of commitment? I'm certain that there are plenty of endearing qualities about you as a person. The problem may be that you cannot see them now.

I am seriously struggling with a deep, paralyzing fear of rejection that is only getting worse.... even though I try to stay positive/focus on my art, tiny things cause a HUGE spiral of paranoia/fear and crush me for days at a time... I feel stuck between my job's need to be online and a deep want to be able to run and hide from everyone so I never worry abt being judged or 'thrown away'. I'm literally almost scared all the time abt it now. It seriously suffocates me worse and worse everyday. And I have NO idea what to do about it. It's been like this for years and I've been working this whole time to improve on it more and more, but it feels like it's only gotten worse anyway... What do I even do at this point?? I feel like I'm inevitably crashing. I want to feel safe again. It's been years and I miss feeling safe so badly... I'm just completely out of answers now 💔

A different kind of WIP. Working on this takes a lot of time away from art. That's one of the reasons why my art posts are so slow. I hope you hate it.

@Finley_Futanari You're pretty AND smart

I'm sad tell me I'm pretty

@kofidereVT It's gonna be alright buddy, take care of yourself NOW!

i'm sorry about my behaviour on stream today. it wasn't acceptable. i will be taking the remainder of the month offline to focus on myself & my mental health. i am deeply sorry. i shouldn't have let myself get this bad, or at least not so publicly.

@MOED0LL You should be more active, you'll get physically depressed if you don't move enough.

i do nothing other than sit alone in my room all day i feel so lonely and i’m so sick of staring at screens all day

@kintsugeist You're going over your sketch instead of using the sketch as a blueprint for the line art. Sometimes it can be lone thickness and additional shading details, can even be the softness of the lines in the sketch that make your line art look less appealing to you.

If anyone knows the secret on how to avoid this please tell me

@ittysecret It'll be okay kiddo

you’ll never find another girl as desperate and devoted as me

@rosiebellmoo Isn't it usually poor manners when chatters mention other vtubers out of context of the stream discussion? Make sure to set your boundaries and keep your chat straight when they try and veer off toward discussion of other creators.

I'm trying really hard to get out of my mental funk but man . Having someone come in chat just to say it was another streamers birthday and it's really exciting over there ..just . I get it. Im smaller . I'm happy for them. But it got to me . Please don't do that .

@LemiLichen You probably just inspired them to go out and make a name for themselves. Can't achieve personal life goals in chat alone.

i also feel sad when i notice a longtime chatter missing… sometimes i worry it’s because i struggle to show my heart… i might not respond to every chat message and i never know how to respond correctly to nice comments… but i do notice everyone & they mean so much to me… 💚

@Finley_Futanari @NicoENVT Yeah you might have to form a group centered around your niche at some point in the future. I would personally assume there was something about me that they were trying not to associate with.

@NicoENVT I felt this way about groups. I know I've only been around about a month but I've been trying to make friends and thought why not apply to small independent groups. They all never got back to me and announced their groups with bigger following Vtubers and now I'm sad to try again

So, I used to join a lot of YCH raffles. Won a lot of them and used to think it was just hyper good luck. But overtime realized some of my larger following mutuals joined them too, and then they started winning all of them. Not just 1-2 here and there, I mean like 10-20+ a month. I think I've finally realized that most of the art raffles just pick the person with the highest following and it's kinda upsetting seeing it and realizing it. I did think winning a lot was cool last year in Nov/Dec, but the longer I look into it the more I see consistent patterns and it's really upsetting because that means smaller accounts literally have no chance and it's just using them for reach/numbers. Be careful what raffles you join, I think most are heavily rigged. //Not going to be joining anymore for a while. Might join some again around Halloween time but that's about it.

@SazawaShiro Yeah we can go with that, great idea

@ArsVersus IT STILL CAME OUT SO CUTE!!!! my apologies for have too much tail we can say may tail is down and behind the log for convenience 🫶🫶🫶

Shiro Sazawa (again) My apologies the tail was just too big to fit into the illustration without messing up the composition #shiroillust

@Finley_Futanari too crazy to die

It's 3am. Tell me your reason to live

@minaunlovable Looks great! Knock em dead, gorgeous

I chopped a lot of hair off but I still have the same hairstyle

@missusmummy I figured you knew, I just wanted to share for anyone else who might be curious about why this happens in the comment thread.

@ArsVersus I understand supply and demand. My little miny break down at the bottom with the *sheesh* I thought showed this was a fake / sarcastic rage post.

Every artist that I ever wanna comm's stats say... Not taking comms Comms closed Out of my price range Selective Comms Only Get Notified When Comms Open Has ghosted clients for months & not answering dms... OK! YOU GOT ME. I GUESS I'LL JUST KEEP MY MONEY! SHEESH!