зверь || Boom Shadow || 暗闇

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀oh it’s been a year now . think I’ve figured out how , how to think about you without it ripping my heart out .

⠀⠀⠀˛ car , vois —— tu , chaque jour je t’aime davantage , aujourd’hui plus qu’hier et bien moins que demain . ՙ

//big ooc post I can't keep this in you guys have no idea how life changing this is in Hungary... and thank you Poland for this warm welcome, made me sob, finally friendship can bloom again with democracy 😭😭❤️❤️

@Z0nepolice If there's any other mission you feel concerned about, just toss them to me. ...Maybe that will ease your mind.

@B00M_Shadow No, I've been.. off, lately. I think I'm in some sort of.. state of sadness. I don't know.

It took a few hours, it seems, but j do have paws and legs now.

@Z0nepolice ...no, I'm the one who's sorry. I'll focus back on the mission.

@B00M_Shadow I'm sorry.

@Z0nepolice ...okay.

@B00M_Shadow I am happy. I'm just tired, Shadow, that's all

@Z0nepolice ...hm. perhaps.

@B00M_Shadow I doubt it was your immortality. Most likely just anons being.. anons.

... Ah. I dont enjoy dresses very much.

@Z0nepolice I feel like you're not at all happy to have them back.

@B00M_Shadow ..I suppose so.

@Z0nepolice Everything was on me for at least that long, or more. Maybe it's because of my immortality.

@B00M_Shadow 4 days? Gaia.

@Z0nepolice They are yours, though. Not robotic, just your flesh, with the imperfections. That means a lot.

@B00M_Shadow It made holding things a pain, actually, when I didn't have metal paws. My claws were always very short, my paws very shaky. I never seemed to grow out of that.. and now I have that problem again, haha.

@Z0nepolice Lucky, last time I tried, it stuck for 4 days anyway.

@B00M_Shadow I was able to remove it, thankfully. It said nothing about having to keep it on, so I didn't need to.

@Z0nepolice They do, which is why they remain short normally, only when I transform they grow longer, since I... don't really remain the same for my body either then.

@B00M_Shadow You do. Admittedly, before you, I never really examined other people's hands comparing them to my paws. They're a lot different. My claws are what helps me grip things, but you have longer fingers for that. Your claws almost seem to hinder more then they help.

@Z0nepolice Yeah, I know. I have hands though.

@B00M_Shadow They're paws, Shadow, I don't have human hands, haha

@Z0nepolice Details, details.

@B00M_Shadow Paws, but yes. I can.

@Z0nepolice You can feel me with your hands again, though.

@B00M_Shadow Yes. But I have to relearn everything again.

//I might not get my Idol Shadow back, but I wish to apologize for anyone who has followed that account of mine; unfortunately due to a cookie snatch, I got hacked, and the hackers posted some annoying crpto scams

@Z0nepolice You misunderstand... Either way, I'm waiting, Mirtillo.

@B00M_Shadow You're frustrating me. I'm not a child, Shadow. I'm not escaping from you, or my home life. It is work, and my own mind. Mostly my own mind. Please, let's just.. drop it.

I've been in a better mood as of late. How is everyone?

@Z0nepolice It is my fault though. If I did better, if I was a proper partner, you wouldn't try to escape from everything using something instead that's bad for your health.

@B00M_Shadow Stop saying sorry. You're acting like this is your fault. I am a grown man, Shadow, I can make my own choices and mistakes. It is my fault alone.