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Winter holiday

So being away for so long made me realize what it is that actually makes animating fun for me, or rather, I learned what kills my enjoyment of any creative endeavour. See, I got into the habit of cranking out an animation once a week with a tight schedule for the sake of my patreon page a long, long time ago. I felt obligated, because people paid me for my work, and instead of deriving enjoyment or achievement from that, I felt a sense of dread and suffocation. Instead of trying new things I just stuck with doing what worked because I could create it in a short enough timeframe and I was reasonably sure people would like it. At the same time I was mortified of looking at other artists, because, in my mind, they were so much better than me and were growing all the time, while I was stuck doing the same thing over and over again without a spark of joy to be had. Now, to be perfectly clear, this was, all of it, inside of my head. I think I've gotten one negative comment, in like 5 years. Nobody ever told me they'd stop following or supporting me if I tried different things, or experimented, or moved away from familiar kinks or futas or whatever, but I let the numbers get to me. Big line must go up forever. Still, Animating became a job instead of a creative outlet that brought me joy. So last week I started animating something again because I felt like it (and got my gpu working again), and it just felt, and still feels, fun. I'm tinkering with poses, lighting, seeing what works and what doesn't and it's good. I'm doing it again because it's what I want to be doing, selfish as that sounds, I suppose. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say with this ted talk, but I think what I mean is the lesson is that animating giant cocks is fun again. Weee.

@ChristinaTasty Imagine playing videogames released after 2010. lol. lmao

Explaining why I, personally, hate Mixtape in just under 3 minutes of totally uninterrupted "gameplay" (Spoilers):

I'm replaying Sonic Adventure 2 and I'm likely going to make it everyone's problem by animating some furry abomination featuring Rouge the bat.

I'm kind of torn between shitting out short form loops or trying something longer. Maybe I should learn to animate again first lmao

Kind of wild some of my janky animations have over a million views. The internet must really be dead.

@AETERNITASxAMOR Beyond the veil, where GPUs dare not tread, or work.

@Bandoned1 YOU!!!! WHERE DID YOU GO!!! 😭

So I heard this animating thing is pretty cool. I should probably, like, try that sometime. idk.

@Hypophria21 Let's not get carried away here.

@Bandoned1 Omg you're alive 🥳

What are you waiting for?

@Hypophria21 Thanks, I've been tinkering with new lighting techniques <3

@Bandoned1 She's so gorgeous, love the lighting and that erection 😍

New early access animation up for grabs in the usual place, check my bio!

@BigusDickus987 It wouldn't make much sense for an animation where she grows a boner and then lock her up, lol.

@Bandoned1 Ash belongs in a cage. 😤

@BurstingSeas Somewhat realistic, lol.

@Bandoned1 Fairly realistic size too, props

I'll just fap to my own work, fuck you Elon.

This app is just some kind of bot filled hellscape without porn accounts.

Well, looks like changing countries doesn't work anymore. Great. I'll move to that other shitty site then, I guess.

@BordeauxBlackVA Bored, Oh.

If you ever needed a guide in how to pronounce my name… 😏

Man this app sure is ass. I was gone for like two months and forgot how things are even worse than I remembered lol.

@nullus02 @doublenyl

I don't think people realize just how large of a woman Pharah is. There's a reason she can carry all that armor. Pharah & Mercy: @doublenyl

@CinderDryadVA Why don't you own the gamecube version, you filthy casual.

Trying to get the controllers for Twilight Princess to work on steamdeck has made my hair go completely white. Please dear god, anyone, if you know how to solve this please help me. I screenshotted the Reddit post because I don’t want to type this all out again