Polaris

I’m having more pizza today like the fat chud I am

@Axonvoth I’m proud of you and your story is very inspiring 🥹❤️

I think what helped me, was when I was told that its normal to feel that way. People explore and fine their purpose at so many different points in life. Never be worried if people pass you by, theres ways to catch up. I was really bent on this for a few years after high school. y disability was reaching its former worst and I got to see all my highschool peers go on to college, get married, get careers. Whilst I was withering in a wheelchair, too sick and dumb too go to college. To dependent on a caretaker to think i deserved love.I reached an extreme low in my life watching the people I loved get to move on while I felt like I was stuck. Does it still feel like that sometimes. Yea? But thats what finding new friends and exploring new communities was like for me. I started an art account instead of doodling alone. I joined an art community. And eventually I watched my first vtuber/twitch user and joined their community. All these things have allowed to meet new people and i cherish you and your community so dearly for it. This last year has been amazing for my mental health. So for now my plan is to keep drawing, keep having fun, and maybe hope for a little science to fix me. Goals are fun. But when you reach em they just get moved higher.

Eeeuurgh I’ve always been self critical about my worth and always had this mentality that I HAVE to know what my purpose is. At times I feel it’s never enough what ever I do but I need to realize that you can still be happy in stagnation. There is still value in being simple

@Vaporeon107 This is beautifully written 🥹

for me, a lot of this year has just been helping my nervous system to feel safe in being. i'm safe just chillin here, journaling, loving this art, having fun in this community. i'm not going to die, i won't be abandoned, i'm not a bad person who should be doing something more "normal". (actually reaaallly hard overcoming a lifetime of "i'm going to DIE NOW" levels of shame) for most of my life my intellect was in charge, driven by "rationally" and shame. literally failed every time at achieving goals meaningful to be, or helping me find people who actually love me for who i am. i try to constantly communicate with what my higher purpose may be, but it's definitely not an intellectual plan, more an act of an alignment towards the fullness of my being as it seeks to express itself. when i feel love and presence flow deeply through the moment i have faith that i am aligned with the unspeakable fullness of my purpose here 💜 the full knowing of my purpose will always eclipse me value in simplicity, as the beauty of the infinite lies within simple pleasures

@Vivyillust Ty for your advice and thoughts I’ll remember to remember that! 🥹

@Bear_NPC I've been feeling the same, so you're not alone. Some days are ok and some days hit you HARD. What helps me is to stop thinking about the past and only learn from it. Stop feeling anxious about the future and things outside of your control. Hope that helps and stay strong! 😼

@zenthicks Whehhh Zen…. You’re so nice tysm for the kind words 🥹

@Bear_NPC you're doing cool streams and making cool art I'd definitely say you're accomplishing things! I'm always excited to see your drawings.

I have no goals at this time and habits are what shape you as a person so i just need to keep doing what I’m doing and maybe I’ll figure it out one day

Pizza…

I chugged da soda and I feel like a waterbed rn. Everytime I step I feel soda inside me ripple and when I lay down I feel the weight of it all pour to the one side of my stomach 😖

WILL BE DOING LIVE ART REQUESTS TO HELP RAISE FUNDS!!! if you've been wanting to get a c0m from me this is a great time to do so! Will be doing anything pretty much as long as it's safeish to stream! (bbw is 100% safe)

I’m curled up in my bed watching all of the episodes of TADC in order and reality is now hitting we won’t be getting any more episodes or probably any kind of side story….. Whehhh :(

The real reason why Glitch sold so much merch of TADC was because they needed money to pay for the license for the song "Isn't She Lovely" to play in the movie

打算拿去印点无料，期待捏✋🏻

truthfully I believe a lot of fans overreacted and it’s silly they all sold their TADC merch because of it I wouldn’t say the ending was perfect but I think for the overall story was really well written and absolutely a win to the animation industry it was able to be in theaters

There’s probably gonna be a lot of fan art because she had a VERY curvy figure 😭

Okay sorry I will gush about TADC a bit but I genuinely couldn’t taken Ribbit’s reveal seriously because she kept doing the fucking Jerma stance in every shot and stuck her butt out a lot while doing it

@Spiritlander It actually plays an important moment in the episode surprisingly but it was really funny out of no where

@Bear_NPC been avoiding spoilers but I'm wondering how on earth that statement could make sense (dw youre good, if anything that just makes me more excited LMAO)

I just saw the TADC and spat my drink out when they mentioned Mormonism

I’m going to BED GN guys!!! :3c I won’t be on twitter tomorrow until I’ve watched a certain last episode of something so I’ll see you then mhmhmhmhm

I hate twitter limit i hate having to wait to follow my friends grrrrr