🔥 Blaise 🔥

@JayStarNaz We’re still working on “knocking on my door and waiting for a response before entering” but I do like that idea of giving a specific time limit. It might make it easier for her to follow.

I’m of course the most worried about my family. Even without room my mom just decided to move in anyway. She is ALL OVER me and everything I do all day long it’s driving me insane. And my brother seems to get more stressed day by day and my dad just leaves the house more and more often. I don’t know how to handle any of this. And NO ONE will acknowledge that I’m almost 40 and don’t need a constant babysitter!!!

Omg this weekend was sooooo magical I love my friends so much!! We got to go through my books they had classic Long Island pizza, bagels, deli, AND a trip to Robert Moses and it wasn’t awkward at all it was just like hanging out with people I’ve known for 20 years. I’m so so lucky in friends, my life is so full of love. AND they got tattoos in my honor. I’m truly #blessed I don’t care how cliche it sounds.

I can’t believe I’m meeting my internet friends today!!! They don’t just live in my pocket The Madness Girlies will be here in a few hours!!! 🖤🖤🖤

My cat being scared of my lap now it not a fun development 😔

Off to see the unicorn tapestries today! 🦄🖤

It’s a total cliche but it’s 100% true. I am in so much peace and feel so much love and grace in these last days. I’m getting tired so much more quickly I don’t know if I’ll last this projected months but this time period has been a gift from God.

OMG MY INTERNET FRIENDS ARE COMING TO VISIT ME!!! They are real and not just in my phone 🥹😂🥹🖤

I have seen soooo many friends this week and there’s even more to come. I am so lucky I am surrounded by so much love. 🖤🖤

Lemme just say, I’ve never shied away from the fact that I’m materialistic. But I think I am having even MORE FUN giving all my stuff away to my friends and family. 🖤 I get to talk about my favorite things forever and no one can say no to The Beautiful Dying Girl (tm)

@paigevest It’s horrible and no I ditched that almost ten years ago and have never been happier. I’m mostly just post into the void on here.

@Blaise137 Oh, sweetheart. This is so wrong to be happening to you. I'm so sorry. I wish I could just hug you. Are you still on Facebook?

Sent home with hospice care. I can’t believe my life is going to just end in a few weeks - months from now. It’s so surreal. I was FINE in February….how did this happen?

I finally found something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

Omg I got a whole package of get well soon cards from my Teens at the library and it made me cry so hard. I feel so loved by everyone in my life. When this is all over I know it will be because of the amazing support I have around me.

Pain management appointment today FINALLY

They removed SIX LITERS of fluid from my stomach. That’s almost 12 pounds. Still in a lot of pain but it’s so much better not being bloated.

Constant pain 24/7, waking up every two hours…I don’t know how I’m supposed to live like this. 😔

Surgery set for Thursday for more tests, chemo port, and hopefully draining some of the fluid so I can be more comfortable. Just have to hold on till then. 🤞💪😔

“Bottom line is, even if you see them coming, you’re not ready for the big moments. Nobody asks for their life to change. Not really. But it does. So what are helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come you can’t help that. It’s what you do afterwards that counts. That’s when you find out who you are.”

Wait did we just have another earthquake?