I swear I have bipolar disorder or something though. I have the worst mental cycles. I’ll feel good then just be down in the dumps mentally. I hate it..
And I think it’s better to have that “killer” side then to not have it.. if something were to happen you’d rather be prepared and have “that” in you compared to being unprepared and not having it.
While we are on this topic same thing goes for rap.. That’s what I primarily listen to.. always have..obviously I don’t condone a lot of the stuff in the music.. but listening to it has helped me develop a thick skin going through different 💩 throughout life.