Cassie (Gravure Doll)

@Kampiye @4STR3LL4 I didn't expect it. I put the effort in. Only to be shown it didn't matter, I just wasn't chosen for this apparently.

@Cassperture @4STR3LL4 You can't expect it, social media is poison but addictive

I can't do this anymore. This is just exactly what I want to post but she's doing it better and getting rewarded for it. I'd cut off a limb for the response this got. Do you know how hard it is not to caption every image I post something mean about myself? But no one gives a fuck

@Clipping_3 It's actually a very accurate measure of how many people care to respond/feel about you.

@Cassperture when has twitter been right about anything

@Clipping_3 I don't care and twitter doesn't agree. She got hundreds of responses and more likes than I ever have.

@Cassperture you brutally mog her btw

@4STR3LL4 This is not my experience. It's basically cope. And I don't buy it because I know my own personal experiences. It doesn't matter at this point. Think this is probably the final nail. Something so emblematic of exactly what I wanted gotten easily by someone I know.

@Cassperture I told my friend group of 8 people in their early 20s I got 200 likes on a post and they nearly shit their pants. There are plenty of people my age who are not infected with the same brain worms as us

@4STR3LL4 Literally every single person below the age of 30 would be impressed if you said you'd gotten 10k followers. And regardless, getting so much positive feedback feels good personally. I have never received this.

@Cassperture I had to show my 24 year old buddy yesterday how to search for an account on here. Social media is a microcosm and is not even partially reflective of the real world

@rens_twi And yet when she casts far less she is rewarded far more. Speaks to the level of undesirably I have, I suppose.

@Cassperture You cast your pearls before swine

@4STR3LL4 If you seriously think that most people don't care about social media clout then you're kidding yourself. Everyone below the age of 30 does.

@Cassperture You would know you failed at something that does not matter to a majority of people and you are hurting yourself so much more than you deserve

@4STR3LL4 Everything else is secondary to my goal of succeeding at obtaining social media clout, it's literally more or less the only thing that could make me happy. And as it stands? She's so much more wanted and popular and desirable than I am. And that makes me feel awful.

@Cassperture :( I don’t really know what else to say then except for I wish you cared more about the real world and the place you could have in it

@4STR3LL4 It wouldn't matter because I would know I had completely failed at succeeding at this. Moving on wouldn't change that knowledge. And knowing that another person just effortlessly did it? It would drive me insane.

@4STR3LL4 I don't care about that. I've had friends, lovers. None of them are even slightly as enjoyable to me as followers and responses on twitter. I simply do not care about the real world.

@4STR3LL4 Maybe, but if it is gambling I can't take watching someone I know buy a lottery ticket and win first time when I've been playing for decades.

@Cassperture Social media is gambling 90% of the time and you are placing way too much of your value in it

@4STR3LL4 It'd be absolutely fine if I got responses like she did. I'd be happier than I've ever been.

@Cassperture I think maybe social media isn’t very good for you

@internet_hottie There is no joy. I was chasing joy. And the INSTANT she wanted it she got it, and the hundreds of images I've posted of myself counted for nothing in comparison.

@Cassperture comparison is the thief of joy. muting this thread so don't bother responding

@rens_twi Actually, no, I'm not. I'm worth less. Posting the most intimate parts of myself is worth less than someone doing the exact same thing I've been doing since I stopped my last account but I don't know, I guess she's prettier or whatever.

@Cassperture Cass I don’t think you should feel forced to post your body like that for attention. They are just gooners on the internet, you are worth more than that.

@internet_hottie It is pathetic. You have no idea how hard it is not to caption my posts what I actually think. And when I do, no one cares! When she does it, she gets the exact response I want! There's no point in me posting anything. It's a waste of time. People can instantly get what I want.

@Cassperture not pathetic. about average for a tgirl poster of above average beauty. this really isn't the end of the world, girl

@rens_twi I don't care where it's stored. I just know I don't have it and I never will.

@Cassperture Engagement is stored in the breasts

@internet_hottie Her past two big face posts are literally something I could've posted and both got more likes than anything I've ever posted. People love her when she stops doomposting, when I resist the urge to call myself ugly every post; and I get 4 responses and the same 200 likes. Pathetic.

@Cassperture there are a million factors that go into why a post gets popular and hanging your mental health on that is just stupid bc it's not controllable

This is a fairly good tip expressed poorly. Black lipstick is really hard to make look good. You need to be really pale: not just normal pale. Not as pale as me. Actively made up to be pale. Like a clear gothic look. It virtually doesn't work otherwise.