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If anyone knows of any 3D artist roles in the UK (Yorkshire/remote) or can pass on the info of someone who would, please lmk! Looking for a new role currently - I've been ghosted and left without pay, so hoping to continue my career elsewhere❤️

People act like I'm being too literal about job applications when I say this, but rewording your exp to match the criteria doesn't work now. Transferable skills have no weight, you can either hit the ground running or you're rejected.

Please sign my petition on getting Palantir out of our NHS - now at over 110,000. you.38degrees.org.uk/petitions/stop…

Unemployment is so isolating. it was hands down the toughest period of my life. I do not think most people understand how chronically lonely it is when you’re unemployed and can’t even get an interview after months of giving 100% to find work. You feel worthless, like you have no value, like you don’t matter

my RE ranking: RE - too scary didn’t play RE2R - too scary didn’t play RE3R - too scary didn’t play RE5 - too scary didn’t play RE6 - heard this one sucks, skipped RE7 - too scary didn’t play RE8 - too scary didn’t play RE4R - too scary didn’t play RE9 - too scary didn’t play

@egoraptor Regardless of people's inability to discern caricature from reality, I think it's insanely cool that your 11 year old creation sparks conversation around game design to this day. Sure the style was very of its time, but the same could be argued about OoT as a game, funnily enough

This clip is a great example of why I didn't want to continue making Sequelitis. I had an interest in game design, and I had an interest in publicly talking about it, but my thing was comedy, and cartoons. So that's how I did the show... as a cartoon comedy. My schtick was loud characters, and chaotic shouting. Every topic in Sequelitis was shouted at full volume. Every little design choice I thought was smart was "fucking genius" and every minor annoyance I had was a full on meltdown rant. Some things I complained about didn't even piss me off, I just thought they were interesting to bring up. But I exaggerated them for the sake of comedy because I didn't really know how to make them funny otherwise. And I'm sure because I was young and insecure, I had a morbid desire to shake things up... Ocarina was an untouchable game, a 10/10 across the board, and I think being provocative about that appealed to me back then, too. But I love Ocarina. I grew up with it. I genuinely did want to have a discussion about the things that didn't age well, because I think that's interesting. I think we can learn a lot from that. But I dunno... I just don't think I felt confident enough to talk about it with the appropriate tone, so I hid behind what I knew: a cartoon character that shouts. This carried into Game Grumps... I had been doing Game Grumps for like 3 years when I released the Zelda video. I think the lines blurred for the audience because at that point I was "Arin Hanson," not Egoraptor. But Arin on Game Grumps is also a character. If I'm getting frustrated and shouting at a game on the show, it's for the bit. It's a show. Heightened emotions. And the go-to bit for me was saying "this game sucks, it's bad" and going on rants. The intent was to play the buffoon. But I think people just thought that was me. And that's fine. I don't blame them. It is "me," there's always some truth behind that sort of stuff. And I think it was extra confusing because I WOULD just be normal sometimes on the show. But you may notice recently I've very deliberately changed how I handle those bombastic moments on Grumps, where I point the finger inward now. "I suck, I messed up, I can't believe I didn't see that, what an idiot, etc." I just didn't like the bad energy I was putting out there. I hated that people saw me that way. It disturbed me that people told me "wow, you're actually really nice" all surprised when they met me in person, as if they assumed I'd rip their head off. And look, I'm not gunna pretend I'm an angel on the show now, the schtick of "buffoon that is easily angered" comes very easy to me when I'm performing, so I still utilize it constantly. But I usually find a way to channel it inward and be the butt of the joke, instead of just radiating it outward. It's funnier that way. I think I just assumed this was all obvious. You see how I tweet. You've seen interviews. I don't talk like I do on the show, or in my cartoons. I like being supportive of people and I like discussing things. I don't shout in my normal life. So when I see people characterizing me as this idiot who has no patience and sucks at playing Zelda... it sounds so silly but it just honest to goodness hurts my feelings sometimes. I love game design! I love video games! But, I get it. All you can see of me in my shows and cartoons is this loudmouth asshole who says your favorite game sucks. Like, fuck that guy, right? I think that's valid. I think you're right to feel that way. I think I was playing fast and loose with this character and I was being flippant about how frustrated it made people. I regret that. I suppose I should have thicker skin about this. And yeah... it feels so benign in the grand scheme of things. Who cares if people are circulating an 11 year old clip from a cartoon I made and saying "wow this guy's a moron." It shouldn't matter. Why should I care? But I guess I just have to admit that I do care sometimes, and it just kinda bums me out. I cared a lot about game design back then. It wasn't as prevalent as it is now. It was all dry GDC talks (which are, of course, wonderful). I found it really exciting to bring game design to light in a fun way for people that don't usually think about it. I hope I succeeded in that. But if I could go back, I think the in-your-face hyperbolic know-it-all character would go the way of the dodo. I suspect that aspect of it may have done some harm for game design discourse. And that sucks. For the record, the waiting in Ocarina barely frustrates me. I think it's appropriate at times. The game feeling larger and more cinematic just kind of lends itself to moments of pause. Enemies are more sparse so making them "last longer" just kind of makes sense. Did I feel this way back then? I'm sure I did feel stronger that "waiting" was more frustrating... but not to the level in this clip, by any means. That's just being young and insecure, I guess. I felt like I had to beat my chest in order for anyone to listen or be interested in what I had to say.

I went to a free knitting class this past weekend at a little community church 30 minutes into the country (lost phone service 10 minutes from the church) and it was this 74 year old woman who had been knitting since she was 14 teaching a few community members knit and purl stitches. She bought everyone needles and yarn to use and printed out directions we got to take home. I learned how to get started so I am happy. She just sent me an email telling me we can meet up any time to work on projects & she’s made every mistake so can help me with any of mine. These are the women that keep culture going, I am so serious.

everyone i am going to replace chatgpt now. Ask me something and i will drink a gallon of water then give you an incorrect answer

Do you know how dumb you sound to me when you say “I asked ChatGPT”?

We’re a small team developing a game about running an electronics repair shop in Japan, featuring a ton of iconic devices to repair and a cast of wonderful customers, each with a unique story to tell. 🖥️ReStory will launch on Steam this year! #indiegame #gamedev

people forget the way that men and women are sexualized in media is VERY different. take Jill in RE3 remake for instance and the very unnecessary tentacle scene. Male characters are almost never dehumanized/pornified to that extent.

My apologies r/Silksong I wasn't familiar with your game

It’s time to learn vertex coloring. I want you to.

This take is unpopular because it’s real immature, btw. I’ve literally watched white classmates develop real empathy for Black people because of To Kill a Mockingbird. Fiction can expand how folks understand motivation, fear, contradiction. The shit essays and self help books barely touch. Autobiographies always have a spin but good Fiction often doesn't tell you what to think. It drops you into situations where every choice costs something, and you have to sit with ambiguity and imperfect decisions, which builds REASONING. I've learned about West African traditions, Constantinople's politics, and political struggles of the Ottoman Empire from fiction. Malcolm Gladwell is cool, but he didn't improve my vocabulary like Ursula K. Le Guin. Fiction isn’t just entertainment. It’s mental rehearsal for being human. Escaping into a book can be as good for your brain and self regulation as meditation. And yeah, let me add one more chaotic perception I've had: Many “non-fiction only” men I've met are uncreative as hell and tend to treat women like achievements.

I remember seeing a post about how normalized AI in advertisements making the company look cheap will mean real art will start becoming the standard for brands to seem more luxurious and it's really happening

i had to drop what i was doing to make this

Thought i would share this comment i wrote under one of my projects regarding a/i

To everyone depressed about ai. Remember that people are better writers, better directors, painters and designers. They tell better stories and play better music. People are not using ai because the results are better, it’s either a skill issue or they don’t care about quality.

"You can't speak on it because you've never used it" The only reason you even think its useful is because it was trained off of artists like me. I don't need the help of a tool that needed me to work in the first place.

The war on privacy and encryption goes on. This time in the UK. Under the “Children’s Wellbeing and Schools Bill”, lawmakers now want client-side scanning on every phone and tablet. The lawmakers write: “Any relevant device supplied for use in the UK must have installed tamper-proof system software which is highly effective at preventing the recording, transmitting (by any means, including livestreaming) and viewing of CSAM using that device.” Once again, they use “what about the children”, this time to install state spyware that would continuously scan every action on a phone or tablet and watch everything that is shown on the screen. This will effectively ban end-to-end encrypted communication and open source operating systems like GrapheneOS and forbid that people have administrator rights on their own devices. The bill also seeks “Action to prohibit the provision of VPN services to children in the United Kingdom” and wants “all regulated user-to-user services to use highly-effective age assurance measures to prevent children under the age of 16 from becoming or being users.” In practice, this means identity checks for VPN users, making things like anonymous whistleblowing difficult. The attack on secure and private communication is worldwide. Now is the time for resistance. Demand transparency from your politicians, and privacy for the people.