Whensparksfly

I lose.

I'm tired.

I really want to have a mental breakdown today but I forced myself to be okay because I know I can only help myself.

How can I say that I am still living?

Why I am feeling sad out of the blue?

I always wish to be someone I can be proud of... but at the end, its just a wishful thinking. A whisper that will never be noticed.

I tried my best to be the better version of myself but what can I possibly do when no matter what I do, after gaslighting myself for hundred of times, I can't still be the individual I wish I am?

Is it normal to be jealous of someone?