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yunjin shared what she wrote down in her notebook about ‘need your company’ ❤️🩹
“how can we get closer? no one really knows me. sometimes i don't even know my own heart so how could another person know? if i don't speak up about my wounds, others are bound to never know them. but i think speaking your truth like this is a crucial choice. because telling someone "i felt this way" or "my feelings were hurt" is a vulnerable confession and a declaration for the future. it means "pay more attention to me, understand me more, love me more." how often do we say these things to people outside our family while living our social lives? for me, honestly, almost never. what's more common is just getting hurt and talking behind that person's back. what's more common is just getting hurt and quietly setting up a sort of barrier behind them to maintain a proper distance. yes, setting it up to maintain a proper distance. a line to keep myself from getting hurt again. and that relationship stops right there. sometimes, a relationship you lose because you could never bring yourself to speak about that hurt ends up leaving an even bigger wound. that's what it means. the way to get closer in the future is to talk about our wounds to each other. we usually swallow it down thinking "what if i speak up for nothing and we grow further apart?" but a wound is what doesn't get swallowed down. oh, a wound is what doesn't get swallowed down. let me read that again. here, we usually swallow it down thinking "what if i speak up for nothing and we grow further apart?" but a wound is what doesn't get swallowed down. um, a wound only begins to heal once you pull it out and receive someone's warm gaze. however, that choice requires immense courage because not everyone's gaze is warm. but if the maintenance and existence of this relationship holds heavier value than that fear, it is a choice that absolutely must be made. we will get hurt again, since we are all human. but enduring even that is what it means to maintain a relationship. if we get hurt again, it means there is room to grow even closer so let's accept the fear. if we give a wound back, we can just look at the other person more warmly and comfort that heart we didn't understand. that is the answer to how we can get closer and that is love. i wrote something with that kind of heart.”