Endra

My grandmother just passed away and my mother is in the hospital after her second surgery for glioblastoma multiforme (aggressive brain cancer) with an unknown amount of time left. I'm not the best at dealing with grief and will try to continue being as present as I can be (because I want to and it helps, I don't feel forced), but I will be taking some time on and off for my family and myself in the coming weeks. Thank you for understanding.

Alt girl innovation stays winning

@OmidLive Thank you for hanging out with everyone last night, I'm lucky to have met you too <3.

@EndraEX3 happy birthday endra, thank you for brightening up this world with your life. I and countless others are lucky to have met you 🫶

Thank you for the birthday wishes today, and an even bigger thank you to all of my friends and family that flew out for my "throw me a party not a funeral" gathering last night. I've never cried so hard or felt so loved in my entire life. This might have been goodbye for now, but I'll find you all in some way in this world or the next, promise.

Super fun cool workbook to do, but happy side note, I can see more clearly than ever!

Fatiguée femme fatale (wish me luck, today is not a good day)

@Alejandro030690 Exponentially worse than ever.

@EndraEX3 Does this mean that you're feeling better now?

If suffering is inevitable, you might as well do it in hot red.

I legally can't give information on this situation, and I wouldn't anyway since it's not worth risking people's safety for what amounts to me being minimally responsive while being too ill to move. I will say I'm unsurprised, and while a few creators are genuinely lovely people, the mind blowing cruelty, callousness, and short sighted behavior from certain individuals trapped in their microcosms is completely aligned with what I've seen over and over again in entertainment and especially the vtubing space. I'm not going to Google doccy and have my last acts be defending myself against people devoid of empathy that don't even know how fractions and percentages work. If you're new here, hi, I'm Endra. I'm going to continue posting as usual when I'm upright regardless of what happens next, and while I know the court of public opinion is entertaining it is almost always inaccurate and sensational. Love you guys, until next time.

Just confirming that if you got a message from me on Disc, IG, etc it was from me. I've (understandably) had a few people reach out to make sure I wasn't hacked and I wasn't, just me.

Doing this thank you video has been more difficult than I expected. In the meantime, thank you, again. I wanted to do my hypnotic project first, but with my recent perspective shift I think doing a mini podcast series saying the things I wouldn't want to leave unsaid when I have the time/energy to do so would be best. Luckily I'll still have Tarkov clips for my editors to schedule in the meantime, and I'll keep doing my best for you as you've always done for me. Love you always.

I adore this gift so much.

I am stepping down from the leadership of Kinetic for the time being due to severe medical issues that are going to at best leave me minimally functional as I undergo multiple surgeries and hopeful recovery. For the past year I’ve been in and out of hospitals and doctors' offices while still trying to do as much work as I can, but in the past few months I’ve rapidly declined and it’s become unbearable and impossible to continue. I don’t know what the future looks like for me right now, but I do know that Kinetic will be in the best hands while I try to make it through this situation. For inquiries please reach out to Jeremy, Autumn, or through our site. I’m so grateful for the care you’ve all shown during these years, and I’ll be here when I can. Thank you.

@NYChrisG The only thing I see are people's negative moments on Twitter at this point, even though if you click on people's profiles it's no where near all negative. The TL is just a ragebait and if you form your opinion of someone off of that you're not going to like them.

Normally I dont comment on stuff like this because its pointless and a weak attempt at ragebait. But because I saw two posts about her back to back, it made me think. In the past few years, I've learned (against my will) that pokimane seems to -fail- at everything. She failed to be a gamer, instead opting out for irl stuff (yet wishes that twitch goes back to gaming question mark)? She failed at selling cookies (I dont even know how). She failed at owning evo (fighting game communitys biggest tournament, where honestly I kinda thought she hated every second of it). She fails at all(?) relationships (to the point where she thought it would be funny to be married to herself or something). She fails at being funny...... etc. Now again, im assuming what she does is all ragebait. Ive never watched her before. Buuuuut, I have never heard anything good or positive come up about her. Everything is either about pokimane our overlord (jokes), or pokimane, the wackest person of all time. So now I have to think. Is she just unhappy? Does she just suck? Is she playing everyone like a fiddle (a really bad attempt at it I must add)? Am I stupid for posting about this? Someone educate me!!!

Happy 2026, I love you.

You know what, maybe everything is going to be okay.

@liljhunter As far as I know I am

Hopefully I'm not adding too many characters to the Endraverse too quickly, but my step mom really came in clutch with the matching pj's. Sister reveal inc. Merry Christmas!

@MushyDoodlesArt Happy holidays, happy life, love, existence <3. You're a treasure.

@EndraEX3 Happy Holidays, Endra!!!💜

Made a thing! Here's the Mushy Holiday Card we made on stream! imgur.com/iFYxUGE If the link isn't super clear just check out the Mushydoodles Channel in discord!