I just told my dad about the time I chugged energy frinks and benadryl on an empty stomach and I was throwing up on the side of the road as if it was a funny story. I was laughing well telling it.
Maybe I am really messed up.
When I was a kid, I used to think it was illegal to go out past 8 unless you were at work. Then, when I was 5-6, my parents split up and I had to wake up at 2-3am to go to my moms house. Thats when I learned you can in fact be outside that late without a job. My oldest memory 😭
Genuinely gonna die if I can't get a new computer. I know this makes me sound spoiled and privileged, but I need a chromebook or computer for work. Also, writing tends to help with my mh too.
I feel bad bcs I'm mad at my dad for sleeping when I've been begging to talk to him, but I also know he's tired. Like, I feel bad but I desperately need someone to talk to. I've vented to google and spilled everything out but they dont have any context and nothing helps.
I wish I had someone to talk to, but I have to watch what I say. So here I am, tweeting my problems, and no one can help me.
I just want to get better.
Things have gotten so bad that I havent showered havent brushed my teeth there's rotting food in my room everything in my room is a mess my hair is messed up, my thighs are constantly bleeding. its becoming too much. Hell, it already is too much. I wake up to ants crawling on me.