Fall. Such a beautiful season.
Though I really love the autumn season, I just can't get the feeling of loneliness off my heart.
I honestly just want someone to hug and to do the cute things with.
Maybe in a different life I will feel my heart stay warm and know what love is.
Halloween tomorrow.
Used to make me excited saying that. Now it doesn't even bring me joy.
Life is making me numb to what use to be my favorite holiday.
Why the fuck did I even make an announcement about quiting content making.
It isn't like anyone knew who I was. I swear I am a fucking moron.
Honestly like 99 percent of my followers probably have no idea who the fuck I was or what I even streamed XD
So. No big suprise here. But I have decided I will no longer be streaming or doing any kind of online content anymore. FocusTunerDusty will continue to be my online name, but for now on I will never be making content.
It has been rough, but I am glad I met the people I did.
So, I had a crazy thought...
What if I just do a funny thing and start streaming again after work or what not.
I may start doing VRC and Trucker Sim streams again.
Just a thought for now, but who knows.
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Me:Also the constant torture I receive from my family due to them constantly screaming and fighting with each other to the point where I can not here people laughing and being loud without thinking there is a fight.
I am at war with my mind and I am very much losing...
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Me: To be honest man, waking up everyday with the feeling that i will never be good enough to be loved by anyone. Feeling alone in a crowded room...
Friend: oh...
My friend: Hey bud, I got a question.
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Me: Shoot
Friend: Well, I know you are starting to do better in life. You have your dream job, you make awesome money, and you even have one of your dream cars. Only thing I want to know is why are you still so depressed?...