A Gamer Called Grey

Hey everyone, Episode 18 of Hyrule Warriors: Age of Imprisonment is now up on my channel: #Zelda #HyruleWarriors #AgeofImprisonment #TheLegendofZelda #TLoZ #YouTube #playthrough #letsplay youtu.be/7ytgNYUuCvk

@PinkMariCh Considering what I've been working on while stream is going on, I'm surprised I wasn't thrown in as well

HELP THEY THREW ME IN JAIL AND ARE FORCING ME TO GET A J-...JOB!!

@nekaishi It's like that saying I was told while I was in art college, "Sex Sells".

The creator of OnlyFans died so young. That’s actually really sad and I hope he rests in peace and that his family is healthy and okay That said, this man made one of the single most destructive and societally degrading services in modern history. He single-handedly destroyed families, heavily contributed to the male mental health crisis, and made sex work and porn a significant part of Western culture to a degree where most young women aspire to make “content,” or think of making it, as soon as they’re of age, and a majority of women have considered just quitting their job and making porn, and many have I understand suffering and struggle more than most people I’ve ever met, but the normalization of pornography and sex work is so degrading and morally bankrupt. We need to do better, and also try to understand our impact on not only ourselves, but the world around us. I’ve struggled for so, so long but I strongly believe in making things better than we found them. I strongly believe in triumphing through our struggles as someone better, to inspire others Inspiring young girls to sell their bodies, or building businesses entirely on the suffering of men—a business designed to take advantage of struggling men and keep those men addicted and in lower energy states—is so destructive to society I get desperation, but from my extensive experience, I don’t agree with giving in to it. Something is seriously wrong with where our society is This man built a service that degraded the moral foundations of all Western societies It’s tragic that he died so young though, and I hope his loved ones are all okay and have the support they need at this time Rest in peace

@nekaishi Sometimes something doesn't have to be a perfect carbon copy to be good. Sometimes it just has to be close enough to be considered good. I have a feeling that this is what the One piece live action is right now. It's just that close enough that it's a good adaptation.

I hate that I'm saying this, and I know there are things that could have been better in the show but... Guys, Netflix is cooking with this show I would be incredibly delighted to watch 12 seasons of this live-action and follow along the journey of the cast over the next 15-20 years building it I genuinely think this could end up being one of the greatest shows of all time. I know it's not the anime! But if you go into it expecting the anime, you'll be disappointed. Go in expecting a slightly different interpretation and appreciate it for what it is, and I think you really will have a lot of fun—this show is bordering on once-in-a-lifetime in my opinion

@MariVtuber I'm surprised they're not made from Blue Cheese

Do you like my new crocs?

Hey Everyone, Episode 24 of Donkey Kong Bananza is now up on my channel: #DonkeyKong #DonkeyKongBananza #YouTube #playthrough #letsplay youtu.be/BazuZphCUcY

@MariVtuber Sorry about the double reply, but here is one of the chess boards I have. And yes, It's made entirely out of Lego

I just received Foldable Wooden Chess Set Board Game by Onetify from usra_furisana via Throne. Thank you! throne.com/mariyume #Wishlist #Throne

Also Live on YouTube: youtu.be/-XDdzg8jCqk

Going Live with some more Monster Hunter World as I feel like doing some solo hunts today: #Livestream #MonsterHunter #MonsterHunterWorld #MHW #twitch #YouTube twitch.tv/graysonxavier

@MariVtuber I should really show you one of the chess boards I have

I hope to be here for the long run. Not just because I want to see you succeed... But also because despite everything that's happened to you, your a really good guy. Been great laughing along side you every stream I've watched since following, even if it's only me that hears my own laugh with you. It's honestly done a lot to reduce my own stress levels just interacting with you both here and on stream. So keep doing what your doing, Because even with me doing my own stuff (whether it be my own streams or when I'm at work), I still make sure to keep an eye on stream to see what's going on

Hey so, haven’t made a post like this in a minute but there’s been a lot of new people recently and I wanted to introduce myself a little ⚠️ This post is more personal and real so fair warning! Hello! I’m an ADHD male Canadian content creator, and online I go by Nekaishi! Before all of this though, I never had a good life. For quite a long time it was actually incredibly dark—toxic environments, addicts, lots of death and near-death situations for many years, on a weekly basis. Blood, death, suffering and survival are kind of my norm It was really hard, but through it I learned a lot and gained strength I wouldn’t have otherwise had. My life had personally shown me why honesty, truth, and love are so important. Why it’s important to even try to love those who’ve hurt us—though don’t mistake this for being naive. Boundaries are vital and not everyone deserves or should be in your life, or near you There were moments that were so traumatic I don’t even remember them, and the only reason I know of them is others told me what happened. So when I talk about the things I do it’s from a very real place For years I worked on a plan to save myself, and I went to college—which I still owe debt on 😭—for electrical engineering tech and it was fucking horrible… haha I hated it so much, but I do love the people I met! After 4 years I graduated and moved to Alberta and coincidentally it was this month that Canada shut itself down and went into a complete lockdown. Non-essential jobs didn’t exist and the education I slaved for while simultaneously surviving an incredibly toxic situation was kinda just swept away. I didn’t really know what to do honestly as rent, power, and net were still due every month. Luckily I had savings though so I at least had a few months. Eventually I just started playing Beat Saber to help mentally and physically and soon after I also started streaming it. This was a bit over 5 years ago now. Been a full-time VTuber ever since, though very much struggling… Male VTubing is fucking brutal, and nearly impossible. On top of that so many people hate you, look down on you, use you… 😅 It’s been a really long journey, and almost none of it was easy, at all. I’ve made incredible friends and met people I didn’t even know existed given my life up to that point. I wouldn’t be where I am today if not for them. I don’t know where I’d be honestly I’ve also experienced unbelievable betrayal, slander, hatred, and abuse as well in the space. When people hurt innocent people they always try to fabricate lies or delusions to justify themselves too. I’ve experienced it all honestly I love what I do, I love being a content creator and helping people laugh and heal in that laughter. It truly lightens my heart of all of what I’ve experienced. I love sharing the things I know and learned even if sometimes it’s heavy stuff because I know it can help people. It also gives what I endured purpose When I say I love people it’s because I actually really truly love people, even those who hate me and hurt me. I never want people to experience the depths of darkness I was subjected to Love means challenging people to do better, to be better. That’s what I had to do with myself to survive. I expect from others that same love I have, to be better for those around us. To strive to be a force for good I want to show others you CAN be that, and I don’t care who fucking hates me for it Integrity and authenticity are so important and I’m so tired of so much around us being so inauthentic, fake, greed-driven, and just hateful. So damaging, and destructive We should love ourselves and others despite our flaws, and strive to be better every day. We should strive to show it and be an example, instead of some fake idol that PRETENDS to be good We should be actually good. We should lead with actual love and that’s what I strive for every day So, thank you for supporting me, and having my back. I hope I can be a force for good in your life

Also Live on Youtube: youtu.be/hpBoyalb_A0

Going Live with some Monster Hunter World with Sly. Not letting PSN being down stop us from doing what we do: #Livestream #MonsterHunter #MonsterHunterWorld #MHW #twitch #youtube twitch.tv/graysonxavier

Hey Everyone, Episode 29 of Kirby and the Forgotten Land is now up on my channel: #Kirby #KirbyandtheForgottenLand #YouTube #playthrough #letsplay youtu.be/cHuU3MNDCYA

I get it, don't worry. It just sucks that I can't keep the numbers on my end to do it. Every time I've tried I've gone from having viewers to having no viewers. The only time I've managed to raid anyone was one raid I got out to Mari last week when I was streaming with my friend Sly. Some of his viewers jumped over to my channel just to allow me to raid out that day. You actually almost ended up with a raid from him that day too. But literally as we finished you were already raiding out that day. I normally keep both your stream and Mari's up on my screen while I stream so that way I can still support both of you while I do my own thing.

@GamerCalledGrey Yeah it’s set to a minimum because people were abusing it to self advertise They’d stay live and “raid” tons of streamers to advertise and try to get people over to their stream… It was regular enough that it was a genuine problem 😭

Any creator that shuns, ignores, or belittles you for raiding with a modest-sized community is full of themselves The ego it takes to look down on someone who looks up to you and just wanted to support you is honestly baffling That’s the space we’re in though. So many people get a little bit of success and forget they were once in the exact same spot. From my experience, it’s usually the ones who blew up overnight. The creators who actually had to grind for years—like me, full-time for 5 years—know how brutal it is and respect and love other creators more because they actually get it How anyone can shrug off genuine support is straight-up disgusting Never, and I mean EVER, support those creators. They deserve a reality check right in the jaw Listen… you’re all doing fucking amazing. Like, the fact that any of you support me at all is so heart-warming. I’m not perfect, but anyone willing to get behind me means the absolute world to me. I’ve been drowning for years—effectively my entire life outside of streaming as well—and in the streaming space it was never the big creators who were there. It was the lurkers, chatters, the smaller creators who love what I do, and people just like me—who are struggling too but still have the heart, humility, and love to show up I really hope I’ve proven I have your backs too Anyone who shrugs off your effort can go fuck themselves. Have some fucking humility Listen, guys, ladies, I freaking love you. You’re all amazing and you should be damn proud of yourselves ❤️ Shut off the noise, and stop catering to shitty creators. They don’t deserve you I mean it

@nekaishi So long Chuck Norris. May your legacy continue long past your passing and your Roundhouse Kicks strike true in your next life.

So many people are celebrating this man’s death simply because they disagreed with him on what’s best for their country He died, guys. He’s dead. How anyone could love death and murder so much is really baffling to me—they need to check their heart I don’t really know him aside from the memes and how he tried to do a lot to help kids, honestly I just can’t comprehend people who take joy in this, and it honestly worries me how polarized the world is getting. Even minor differences in opinion get blown way out of proportion, and this growing idea that it’s good when those we disagree with die—or get murdered—is becoming normalized. It wasn’t just a few voices—it was tens of thousands openly celebrating, with millions more supporting it If this complete lack of empathy and love keeps growing, I’m genuinely incredibly worried for the future We need to love people, and move in love. All I see is hate… Love people. Be humble. Rest in peace, from Canada

It's getting really bad. And like I said in discord, I had both your stream and another stream (Mari) up and didn't encounter any issues. I honestly, after hearing about people having these problems, am surprised that I didn't have any today. I've been encountering them more on YouTube rather than on Twitch, so today was the first day I heard about this happening on Twitch to this extent

🚨 TWITCH 🚨 ...What the hell are you doing to Viewers? This is my stream today—no raids. This is the most unnatural and statistically improbable stream graph ever No disconnects. Zero instability. Zero dropped frames. Multiple people in chat told me they had to refresh the stream multiple times because it kept throwing error messages I don’t know if it’s tied to how Twitch is counting viewers, but something is seriously broken with how the platform is functioning right now And another thing, the lurker system seems to be completely broken... Like, you can have 60 people lurking but only 20 showing as viewers… then a 10-person raid hits(Love you guys 🩷) and boom, you instantly jump to 60~70 viewers, and it stays. I’ve seen it. My friends have seen it too—I didn’t even prompt them, they just brought it up themselves Something is messed up behind the scenes on Twitch—or multiple things—and it’s genuinely hurting creators who never bot… while the actual botters are still botting the hell out of the platform and finding incredible amounts of success

@nekaishi Honestly, watching you play it today just showed to me that it's a good game. I might not pick it up until the controller situation is better with the game as mouse and keyboard is hard on my hands... Specifically the keyboard portion of it.

I cannot be convinced this game is bad Honestly, I played the game for a good 6 hours on stream today and the controls are a little rough because there’s so much you can do, but honestly all anyone has to do is just learn to play the game and once you do its great Like, the game is incredibly beautiful, the world is HUGE and immersive, and the side quests seem compelling, engaging and fun Mind you, I played on mouse and keyboard so I don’t know if the console/controller version is incredibly difficult to figure out, but the game is awesome and really well optimized. I had a ton of fun today playing it It has a bit of a slow pace, but I found that wasn’t a bad thing. The sound design and reactivity of the world around you are amazing, and I found myself quite frequently just being immersed in it and enjoying the little details they added If the game isn’t for you for some reason, that’s fine, but this is NOT a 4/10 game. This game is thus far incredibly fun, immersive, stunning and the fighting is incredibly satisfying Observe ~ I was struggling with this fight, so on my 6th attempt I naturally threw on white girl music to enhance my abilities—the combat is incredible

Hey Everyone, Episode 35 of Final Fantasy VII is now up on my channel: #FFVII #FF7 #FinalFantasyVII #FinalFantasy7 #YouTube #playthrough #letsplay youtu.be/wcDPbloxCng