SadGirl27

So Im being discharged. Still severely suicidal, though medicated. I told the nurse and dr I still am and they were like -Oh Well!- we need the room. So.... yeah... things are going to look very bleak for me..

The nurses wonder why I don’t eat or sleep. Maybe if I was given something to calm down at night I could sleep. Or, was given something other than cream of wheat and toast for breakfast. And tuna salad sandwiches every day! Then Maybe I would eat!!! 💊💊💊🥪

They wonder why I lost like 7lbs while I’m here Now 95. I am severely stressed and being here isn’t making it much better I don’t sleep Nobody’s giving me medication when I Actually NEED help (I am literally ignored or walked past) and the robot response is. #TheresNothingWeCanDo

You know. It’s part of a nurses job to make sure patients take medication. So when they don’t come up at the usual time. You go get them. Nope not for me! My nurses rather I cry and panic for hours alone in my room instead of waking me if I slept past Fucking 12 #CareAboutYourJob

1 of the reasons I’m here is severe suicidal depression. If you’re having anxiety/depression where you’re ready to sprint out the door/find the nearest bridge. It sucks When they say We can’t give you anything We will not call your dr. We’re not going to do anything Go to sleep.

Cus I slept past lunch (I was up all night having anxiety) I missed lunch meds Which means they only gave me 1 antianxiety/depression pill at 8.30am. No one woke me up. No one said anything. And now all they can give me for stress is Olanzapine. Which is a Fucking Antipsychotic.

Hmm.. I don’t mind twitter people seeing my Tick Tock but I don’t want Tick Tock to see Twitter. Say That 10 Times Fast! @wildrosejoy Tick Tock! Much less depressing... 80% of the time..

Finally. It’s almost 8.30 which means I can take my morning meds. Fucking Finally! (Notice how I tweet and freak out more when I don’t have them???🤪🧐😎🥺😳😤) #cusIneedThem

Hmmm.. 40 mins til breakfast, I’m guessing. 6?half slices of toast. (No butter) Oatmeal, Or flake cereal. Soy milk (Cus I asked) ...aaaaaand. A tiny Juice? #samethingeveryday #youKnowitYouKnowIt!! #fuckingtoast

At least I have videos to watch. No friggn Fmovies though “Guh, Yeah. Jeez, wifi. God!” -dynamite

Simple meal of fish and bread. Makes me nauseous... broth instead? Crackers fill the empty void. But Lunching patients, Still annoyed... #healthPoem #poetryfromthehospitalbed #itsTotallyTrueThough #FuckJasonKenney

I Am. Distraught I Am. Feeling Lonely I Was. Feeling ashamed Because a person in my life (made my condition Worst it’s been) made me feel mental/physical issues was something to shun and be angry at a person for We can feel you stressing doesnt make it better #YourSilenceisNotok

All activities have been postponed. Every group is on the phone. No more handing out a snack. Come out your room.. “You Wear Your Mask!!!” #itsallDecafanyway :O #Iget6halvesofToastforBreakfast #NoButter #atLeastNoMorePuzzles

Does anyone else think it’s weird that the only way to get a spot in the mental health unit is to go through Emergency Usually means sleeping a night or weekend in the ER Can There Be A Wait List Please? Unless everyone’s been lying to me, and there actually is one #WeCanDoBetter

I had an incident with a Dr my last visit 1st questions were Rude Callus and just Inappropriate He Bluntly asked if I was a Prostitute! I’m a well Dressed/groomed woman And the questionnaire was apx. 2min and was.. traumatizing, for already a distressed person. #WTFisWrongWithYou

What, is the Mother holy friggnbfsfjlkvajk n deal. With Abilify. They prescribe them like skittles to Every single Patient. If you are depressed You Do Not Need An Anti-Psychotic!! #DrsGetPaidMoreForDifferentDrugs #AreyouReallybeingLookedOutFor?

So. They have me on... 6? Medications now? Not including nicotine patch. 2 anti anxiety. 2 antidepressants. Occasional olanzapine. And sleep aid... and I still don’t feel okay enough to leave. Not that I have a choice in the matter. #DrugitTilYouShrugitOff #fuckJasonKenney

Why do nurses always look at you Very suspiciously when you ask for an ‘as needed’ med. I get that you probably need to put down a reason Why in the books But I don’t need to be looked at like a drug addicted whenever I Try to ask for an Ativan/etc. #ifWeDidntNeedItWeWouldntUseIt

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The worst part is when I’m doing bad ( like you’re puppy got hit) bad. I have to beg nurses for sometimes hours to call my dr to anti anxiety or depression medication sooner #FuckingHealthcareSystem #nohelpDomtCareSystem