Sarah S. A.

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On Good People Who Die Early… A quote from my grandmother: “God takes the good people who die early up to heaven with him + leaves the bad people (who sometimes live long) in hell on earth.” I’m not religious, but this makes sense, life is hell + heaven is nonexistence.

Despite my chronic depression, I managed to write 7 pages of this chapter. I have a number of pages left to go. Then when I have the energy, I can type it up, edit everything + move onto the next chapter. I’ll be so happy. This has been hard to write.

When I’m chronically depressed, I always want a biryani. I haven’t had one for a while. I’ve cut down so much on takeaways. I find the aroma + spices very healing. These days everything is a struggle. And since I think Indian food is the best in the world, it’s my first pick.

I ordered a biryani from my usual place. The payment went thru but no confirmation. I tried calling them + no answer. They were closed. Business is bad + I hope they don’t close down. Went to another Indian restaurant on the same street. I hope things are okay.

I used to have many poetry journals as a teenager. During a manic episode, I burned all of them, along with my ex-bf’s football shirt that I kept. I deleted all of them. I kind of regret it bc I’d like to have seen how my writing has evolved. This was when I was 19.

I’m a sucker for tight ponytails. I can’t have my hair down often bc of the wind. Sadly, bc of major sensory issues, I can’t have my hair in ponytails or buns for very long. I’ve been using spiral ties but I need to shrink them in hot water. This clip has been okay.

I consider myself a tolerant person. Even if people have opinions I find nauseating they are still entitled to hold those opinions. What I have no tolerance for is people trying to shove their shit down my throat. I don’t do that. I let people be as they be even if I dislike them

Everything in life is subjective. When you force your opinions on people, that’s dogma. The biggest dogma of all forced on everybody is “life is good” bc if you question it publicly, you are never seen the same way again. This world preaches tolerance but is intolerant in itself.

In the game of procreation, even w a very slim 1% or less chance, you will produce undesirable offspring that are anomalies not meant to survive. Instead of giving those ppl a safe way out, you hold them hostage. Hypocrisy is the fuel that keeps the fire of existence burning.

I find AI generated videos of fake birds + fish very annoying. Same with AI generated clips of strange phenomena. Unless your content is for some type of fictional work, it belongs in its own corner of the internet. Some of us are only interested in real life footage.

No amount of beauty in life can compensate for the suffering, tragedy or pain that one has to endure. Beauty is all vanity.

@patronofsatan Very well said! Brilliant tweet! Totally agree! The system rewards compliance + everything they say about growth, change or reformation is just virtue signalling + lip service.

Education without teaching skepticism and critical thinking is not enlightenment, but indoctrination, a quiet surrender of the mind's sovereignty. It rewards obedience over understanding, and mistakes repetition for truth. All learning requires the right to question everything.

I forced myself to go out first thing in the morning to buy food, some packets of instant coffee, a vape pod + a lip oil I wanna try. I hope I will get thru this low that I am feeling. Nicotine + caffeine are always my preferred drugs of choice when I’m low.

Politics isn’t about running a country, it’s about entertainment. Notice how politicians who are perceived as edgy or charismatic are well liked + popular? It also helps if they are a celebrity. When you’re in hell all you have is entertainment.

The Reasons Why I Hate Life So Much: 1. Existential Fatigue 2. Deep misalignment - between how I operate + how the world operates 3. Disdain and disgust - I actively reject the structure of life itself I don’t want to be here. Nothing in this world will ever make me happy.

Idk about you, but if I was God the only followers I would want are people who wholeheartedly believe in the message + people who choose to adhere to the religion at their own accord. Anyone who doesn’t want to be there doesn’t belong in the institution to begin with.

Two things that stand out about Islam: 1. Death penalty for apostates to trap followers in the religion by force. 2. Muslim women only being able to marry Muslim men. Some religions have to take extreme measures just to trap people in their religions.

I think it’s a last resort too, bc it’s a traumatic procedure for the body as well. People need time not only to heal physically, but mentally, emotionally + psychologically. It should be treated with compassion in a non-judgemental manner. Your body, your choice.

I think that abortion is a personal choice, just like religious beliefs or who you choose to be intimate with. It’s a personal matter. It’s nobody’s business but the person having the procedure. The only time it’s questionable is if people substitute birth control with abortion.