Gertrude Robinson

{PINNED} > indie mostly-lit magnus archives rp account > same universe as @/_HeWantsRevenge and @/goldinthsunlght > tw for eye and desolation themes, canon-typical gore, manipulation, etc. no nsfw but occasional are romantic/sexual themes

@betterweatherd Yet, here you are. What is it they say? Do it scared? I think you'll find it worth the fear.

@GrBookworm18 I don’t feel very brave.

Fuck-

@betterweatherd You could look at that and say there's no use trying, no use living, but. I think the brave live anyway, no matter the odds.

@betterweatherd I'm not. I have practice appearing otherwise. If you want pessimism, I can give you that. 42% of marriage ends in divorce, and all the rest end in death. Those are the options, unless you get very creative with the type of tragedy you're enacting. +

@betterweatherd Ha. There's a reason I've never tried it. But you're up for the challenge, I know you are.

@GrBookworm18 I’ve faced down monsters less terrifying than this.

@betterweatherd Well. I'm... Proud of you. For still chasing them, after all this time. Impressed, perhaps.

@GrBookworm18 …mm. The whole point of the trip was him making a fantasy I used to have a reality. I. I guess it got me thinking about… other dreams I had.

@betterweatherd No, come on. You aren't impulsive, not like that. Even if you said it in the moment, you said it for a reason.

@GrBookworm18 …he made everything so perfect. I… I wasn’t thinking. I just said it. And be said yes, and now, it’s…

@betterweatherd ... Why did you ask him in the first place?

@GrBookworm18 I don’t even know what it’ll mean. What it’ll change. …I’m so scared I’m going to lose all of that.

@betterweatherd Tough but tender. Sweet and violent. You defend each other. ... You even relax when you mention him offhand. Whenever you've got plans with him that evening, you move through the day easier. I think married life will suit you.

@GrBookworm18 …how?

@betterweatherd Both.

@GrBookworm18 The ring or the getting married?

@betterweatherd I think it suits you, to be honest.

@GrBookworm18 …the ring isn’t going to give me tetanus.

@betterweatherd So you're going to beat it to it? Come home. Give it some rest. Get a proper ring that won't give you tetanus, whatever feels right. And live the rest of your life.

@GrBookworm18 It doesn’t feel real. It feels like I’m about to wake up, or. Or something is going to come ruin it. That’s what’s supposed to happen.

@betterweatherd Most people worry about the bad. You're always different... Good things happen because they've been happening. I find these things tend to snowball. You got... Something of a blizzard of bad, and it just took one miraculous and unlikely good thing to push the trend the other way

@GrBookworm18 I don’t understand why good things keep happening

@betterweatherd Ha. Of course not. That's why you've got to keep the little things we do get. You worked for them, harder than most. You've earned this.

@GrBookworm18 …none of this was supposed to happen.

@betterweatherd And now, you have the opportunity. Are you going to give it up again?

@GrBookworm18 …it’s. I gave up on this dream so long ago

@betterweatherd I think he's made of stronger stuff than that, dear. He's been through this a few times, he knows what he's getting into. You don't, though. That scares you.

@GrBookworm18 I’m not *meant* for this. It’ll all fall apart, I know it will, it’s- it’s *cruel* to promise him that only to take it away

@betterweatherd ... No, but. That's different. You're young, you've found this boy. Why not keep him?

@GrBookworm18 You haven’t.

@betterweatherd I don't see why not. You do look good in white.

@GrBookworm18 Getting married, it’s. I can’t be a *bride*

@betterweatherd Then what? That's most of what matters here.

@GrBookworm18 Of course I like him. That’s not- it isn’t *that*.

@betterweatherd Only issue I see is with the paperwork, and we could easily figure that out. Do you like him?

@GrBookworm18 I- did, but. I can’t get *married*, that’s- I can’t!

@betterweatherd That's rather rash. I imagine you asked him for a reason.

@GrBookworm18 I need to call it off