Comfortably Numb Grace

Stop being a nice person. Somewhere along the way, you were handed a role, the understanding one, the patient one, the one who never makes things difficult. And you played it so well, for so long, that you forgot it was a role. You started thinking that swallowing your feelings is maturity. That never complaining is strength. It isn't. It's erasure. Slow, polite, well-mannered erasure. The nice person never inconveniences anyone, except themselves. They absorb, adjust, and make room for everyone else until they run out of room for their own needs, their own truth. And the world rewards them for it, right up until the moment they finally speak up, and suddenly they're "too much." That reaction tells you everything. So, stop being nice. Start being you, which might feel selfish at first, because you've been so conditioned to shrink that taking up space feels like a crime. It isn't a crime. It's your life. Nice gets you used. Real gets you known.

Some day I'll be good enough but 🥴 today's not that day

Left on read by 5 people on a row 🥴

Normalize ghosting people that ghost you. Left on read? Walk away!!

@GraceAshcroftRC Literally apologizing for being there for people in situations where most everyone else looks the other way, pretend to be busy and things like that. I'm lucky to have you as a friend 💞

Sorry guys, I need to vent about this. Long post ahead... I have never been through something like this before. I have never had to face situations this serious with people I care about, especially not two moments in the same weekend where I was genuinely scared I might lose them. It is extremely hard to even put into words how overwhelming that feels. One moment everything seems normal, and the next you are dealing with something serious and uncertain. It instills such panic in you. It is not something you can prepare for, and it leaves you shaken in a way that does not just go away. Over the past month and a half, I grew really close to them. We talked, shared stuff, got closer as friends, and built a level of trust that meant a lot to me. Because of that, when everything happened, my first instinct was to make sure they were okay. I wanted to be there, to support them, to do anything I could to help. When you care about someone deeply, it feels impossible to just sit back and do nothing, especially when you know they are hurting. What made it even harder is knowing that I am only an "online friend" in this situation. I am not there in person, I do not have full context, and sometimes I am left in the dark about what is happening. That lack of clarity is honestly terrifying. You are sitting there refreshing messages every 5 seconds, hoping for any sign that they are okay, but you have no real way to help beyond words on a screen. It makes you feel powerless, even when your intentions are to do everything you can. Saturday night hit me really hard. I cried for hours, and when I woke up on Sunday, I cried for a couple more. Even Monday, I just was not feeling right emotionally. It all built up in a way I was not expecting, and I did not really know how to handle it. I felt like I had no one to talk to because both of them were "missing" at the time. Thankfully I had a bunch of other friends that really cared about me reach out and ask what's going on. I am forever grateful for that, you know who you all are. One of the hardest parts is that everything happened so close together that I felt pulled in different directions. When the first situation happened, it took so much out of me that I was not fully there the way I wanted to be for the other person right before things escalated for them too. That has been sitting heavy on me, because all I wanted was to be there for both of them. At the same time, I have come to realize that in trying so hard to help, I may have crossed lines I should not have. I let my fear and worry take over, and I did not always think about boundaries the way I should have. My intentions were never to make things worse or to overwhelm anyone, but I understand now that even care can feel like too much if it is not handled the right way. That is something I regret, and I am truly sorry for. This has been a lot to process. I just hope that the people involved know that everything I did came from a place of genuine concern, even if I did not always get it right. More than anything, I just want them to be okay.

@LiamLXonYT Britishdom (don't actuslly look that Up) is a spectrum

@GraceRe9uiem Are you only gonna speak in cockney from now on sweetheart 😂

Not to get graphic but I think my pants will have a system overload when I get to swan dive in this game

@GraceAshcroftRC Fact checked TRUE

real tho - if I make an effort to talk to someone, and they don't reply back until DAYS later... Why continue trying with them if they didn't have the decency to reply to your first message?

God i wish

@GraceAshcroftRC Good night bestie ❤️🫂

@GraceRe9uiem Goodnight Grace ❤️🫂

Good night open.spotify.com/intl-es/track/…

where the boobs at

Let's make this the greatest 10 minutes of our lives, Grace.

@GraceRe9uiem Aww cute

@GraceRe9uiem wait a minute

I want to go home from work already IM HUNGRY

clairejill word of the day 🥨 pretzel

Felt like adding my older moots on this new account, then remembered they probably never liked me anyway