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@emsback6 I’m also tryna make friends here😭 moot?

ive been on shedtwt since i was 13 and i still don't have a friend group. how do i make friends.

@phainomenons No bc this thing always happens that when I have a good day, the next day I just wake up in a bad mood and sad FOR NO REASON it’s not even cuz I think I don’t deserve happiness or smth, the chemicals in my brain just wanna FUCK ME OVER IG??

depression is crazy you could really be having the best day of your life and then remember that you don’t deserve to have anything good

They keep haunting my mind 24/7. it’s so bad that I just wanna blow my brains out alr so that it’ll go way.

I’m in so much emotional pain. All the time. I can physically feel it, yet this pain is far worse than any physical pain I could ever inflict on myself. Idk how I keep going everyday. I need this to be over already so so bad.

my body is your canvas #knifeplay #cutting #cuts #sub #cutslut #toy

Unpopular sh opinion: I actually prefer the visual aesthetic of thin cuts😭 ppl r always wanting to reach and see the beans but I’m gonna stay in my cutesy styro layer foreva 😵✌️

@dearohdeers It fucking sucked when I realized it’s an addiction. I’ve stolen bc of it. I’m not usually bold like that, stealing sharp stuff is a low that I shouldn’t allow myself to do :(

not realising that SH is an addiction until you feel that high when relapsing

@asenapiine Same but then I get fantasies of someone hot doing it for me instead😭 and then I feel like such a weirdo for making it a sexual thing omfg😭😭 ain’t no way im gonna find someone wiling to, that is also a good healthy partner💀

"but u have friends" not a single person would pick me first

@Broken_Dreamszz Remembering how easy it was for them to turn their backs on me when I valued them so much makes me wanna kms. I cant believe I was so easy to let go of yet I’ve been nonstop grieving them. I didnt even do anything bad still I apologized and got silence😒

@ghcoulsz Moot mayhaps?

what am i to u guys (pls answer🥹)

@txmb_twt I genuinely just want attention and ppl to talk to that understand but I also get barely any views 😭 wanna moot me?

idek sht i keep posting and trying to make moots on here. i either receive nothing or a bunch of guys flirting with me.

I wish I could kill myself for a day to see how everyone would react

@lala599059 @r0binsgr4ve Yeah I’ve def seen the side of shtwt that romanticizes and encourages it but I rlly just want a space to feel normal with this struggle and find people/friends that I can confide in with this part of my life that I can’t share w “normal” ppl irl

@HVM4N01D @r0binsgr4ve true. i'm, in theory, in recovery/recovered, but sometimes I just think the kind of things that ppl irl might not get. I'm trying not to relapse and that's why I kept myself far from here for some time but this community rlly gives one a space to feel free, to feel understood

Personally for me, I joined shtwt because I wanted to talk about my sh without being demonised for it or being told to stop. I’ve always struggled with thoughts and urges of hurting myself/other people, especially when i was really young, and sh is just a coping mechanism for +

@hatsuikuo You’re right.I’m so sorry that happened to you,ty for taking the time to reply.I want to be cared for so bad but I also dont wanna be weak.And I want smth real but I dont think anyone here will step in so its not worth it.I needa figure out how 2 be ok alone

really miss being sick In the hospital being cared about Is so addictive

@bloodyingX3 I’m hoping to find the nice ones 😭

its always the mentally well people