Bobbie✨

autumn is prime starvation season

AND not only did the random cravings stop, but I started to only eat when I was actually hungry, and even if I was too busy to eat or if I was fasting, I would just keep sipping water and I felt perfectly fine (not light headed) and I’d barely notice being hungry

Okay listen, food noise will go away so quickly if you only give yourself like 3 options for meals consistently, like same shit EVERYDAY. The second I started doing that the food noise went away #edtwtㅤ

@moonalignz It’s uhhh, better in different ways, worse in others lol but thank you 💖💖

@Hadlee192845 omg🥺 i hope you're in a better situation!!

Is it fake to say I relapsed if I was never underweight?? Idk sure feels like it lol #edtwt

@Amimimaii For real 😭 it’s feels like so much pressure

@Hadlee192845 I know I’m not doing what i’m supposed to health wise but also like you said I can’t even do things the healthy way cause i feel like I’m losing control. Being formerly overweight is just a constant and endless worry about slipping up and ending up back there 😓

Before(250lbs) After(163 lbs) And the real gag is I’m still not happy 🤪 #edtwt

Got my period and lost my bloating and starting restricting again and went from 164.8 to 160 in 24 hours 😭😭😭 MY BODYS PLAYING HEAD GAMES WITH MEEE

Sorry I write such long responses guys 🫣 I have no irls I can talk to about this stuff

@Amimimaii And whether I eat normally or over eat I always feel like “I’m losing my self control,” the only time I don’t feel that way is when I’m restricting. It’s scary cuz I worry about heart failure and stuff like that, especially as a person who was so overweight but I can’t stop😢

@Amimimaii I never know either, trying to be kind to myself and letting myself eat feels like I’m letting myself slip back into old behaviors and will inevitably lead to me getting big again. Kn the other hand I KNOW I should not be restricting like I am, then the binging and purging comes

@moonalignz But I always struggled to lose weight until recently, I went through a situation where I lost control of my entire life, like barely got to make any choices for myself and then suddenly got really good at it ughhh it’s just fucked up

@moonalignz Omg yes girl, I was a chubby kid and I was misdiagnosed with hashimotos disease when I was 12 so that was when my parents and doctor started putting pressure on me to lose weight. It’s just been this weird back and forth thing since then getting progressively worse each time

@moonalignz Thank youuu 😢 even though I’m on here I honestly tell myself a lot I’m blowing things out of proportion and theres no way I actually have a problem, it’s that whole “sick mind but not a sick body” thing

@Hadlee192845 ur valid no matter ur weight :(!

it's not worth it like 99 percent of the time

@Amimimaii Kinda messed up though that I’m happier now knowing that I am getting closer to my actual gw, I kinda feel like I settled with being at 155

@Amimimaii Awe thank you bb 😭 but honestly partially upset because my body didn’t bounce back the way it should’ve, which was so rude lol! Still I was doing fine until I gained some weight back, I’d gotten down to 145 and blew up and it just really fucked me up

where do i get interactive edtwt mutuals i hate talking to the void all the time.. like let’s hype eachother up..????

i know this sounds terrible, but every time i see old photos of me im grateful for my disorder

@etrnalwings Omggg this is so true! Not to be weird or anything but when I was in prison I refused to eat the food they served in the cafeteria but I had food from commissary so I ate some variation of rice and meat for 8 months straight and I neveerrr had food noise, and I lost like 65lbs

meal tips 𑣲. - it sounds strenuous but eat the same few meals every other day, id have the same yogurt and granola for breakfast every day and a few dinners that id make, it stops food noise and makes u stop seeing food as a stress solver