Inkwraith(pre debut) 💀🦾

Apologies for not properly introducing myself but hello call me inkwraith Ima knight(mechpilot) of the Aidinger empire who games on my days off i hope you come join in all the fun events and times i have planned

@ItzJessieeeeeVT Im sorry you are going through this jessie and that you are feeling this way its never easy dont apologize gor feeling overwhelmed just know you have people in your corner

Sorry ahead of time all... but can I be honest for a sec? I've been doing a lot of thinking tonight, and it just came to me... I have NO fucking clue what I'm supposed to be doing with myself. I enjoy the streams, I enjoy the hangouts, I enjoy the vibes, but in between all of that there's just... emptiness. I know that some degree of that is expected, but it's almost overwhelming sometime for me... like if you asked me what I see in my future even a year from now, I don't think I could give you an answer. Like school? Grades were shit, social life was practically nonexistent, and home life sucked ass. And college was a fucking bust; didn't even last a full year before cracking under the pressure of the studies and expectations of others, so I dropped out. I moved out thinking life would be better, only to be stuck in a toxic relationship for years that ended in the worst way possible and left me afraid to even go home each night, and now I'm here... living alone, stuck with myself and my own thoughts. Each day's the same; I wake up, I go to work, work the time, come home, set up, stream, eat, sleep, and repeat. Again and again and again. I can't even really do anything else aside from going out for the occasional groceries or movie. I don't have IRLs, just the voices of everyone online here with me, and that's not from a lack of trying. It's like a fear I've had ever since my school days that's just been building and building to the point I avoid talking to people IRL, even my own coworkers I don't talk do unless I absolutely have to... And it's not even just worries over the direct thoughts other have of me, more so the ones I fear they have of me behind closed doors. I keep telling myself that I can be more open, that I can be myself, but every single time I try to there's always this little nagging voice in the back of my mind that refuses to let down that last wall for fear of ridicule or that friends will no longer be friends, that past experiences will repeat over and over again. So I procrastinate messages. I stare at DMs every single day, every friend I've ever talked to, wanting to make the first move but always too terrified to ever hit send. And it builds up more and more, until it's eventually been weeks, months, even years since last talking to them, and by that point it's all just... pointless to even try. And that just makes me hurt inside even more... I'm always in my own head, it feels like I'm my own worst enemy every day. The nerves I have of not being good enough, the fears that the people I love and cherish will one day leave because I was too scared to speak, my indecision over even the littlest things, each thing's been nagging at me for years at this point... and I don't know what to do anymore. It's not burnout I don't think, because I do genuinely enjoy the streaming! I wouldn't have been doing it for almost 7 years with 0 progress if I didn't enjoy it. But it's always what comes after that I dread, I think... the voices coming right back again. "Did I make them smile?" "Did I do everything right?" "Am I living up to their expectations of me?" "Do I really deserve this?" I'm sorry for the tangent, and if I've been making people worry lately... but this has been eating away at me for the better part of two years at this point and I feel like I'm breaking apart inside by the day. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, I don't know who I'm supposed to be, I don't know who the fuck I am, and I don't know how to keep going like this... it's just hard to live with someone you hate, especially if that person is yourself.

❓ what’s a reasonable amount for friends to spend on ur gifts 💬 No more than $25 for the most part honestly #tellonym tellonym.me/inkwraithvt/an…

@violetsaucy Uhhhh yes?

Pisces men …

@VTuberSunhee Is it the fact that im looking up mean ideas for bracket 5 commander decks

Your browser history DISGUSTS ME 😳

❓ u got a lot of followers on tiktok? 💬 Hahahahahahahahaha not yet #tellonym tellonym.me/inkwraithvt/an…

@nocturnalnerves So weird to expect anyone owes them your time like that weird af

Since he wants to chat shit on his alt, here's a guy I've known for 8 days politely responding to me saying no to playing Apex with him! After him asking me publicly on my twitter to play with him, hours after him telling me that he didn't like that I don't ask him enough questions about his life and how that's a "basic thing to do", while saying that he knows how busy, unwell, and stressed I am! But I'M the main character! Also bottom of the 2nd screenshots is where I "attacked him" btw!

@MotherAia @JadesGates I have fortnite palworld dbd and minecraft hoping to get more

💙 STREAMER COLLAB SHEET 💙 I’m officially open for collabs! My goal this year is to make vtuber friends I feel comfy and happy streaming with, and to not let my anxiety get the better of me 💫 If you’re interested, comment below and I’ll DM you for further contact! :3

@MotherAia Hi aia

I wanna remove bots from my following! please comment if you arent a bot~🔥

@ItzJessieeeeeVT Agreed but add lego lotr to mine as well

❓ what would u want if someone got u a gift 💬 Hmm… probably more plastic crack (Gunpla)👁️👄👁️ #tellonym tellonym.me/itzjessieeeeev…

❓ when do u get protective of someone? 💬 When someones hurting them im very protective of my friends and people i hold dear #tellonym tellonym.me/inkwraithvt/an…

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@MotherAiapast Im sorry aia

Sorry I didn’t stream today or yesterday, I’ve been cursed with the worst toothache 🥺❤️‍🩹

@mommydevils @VaeVictisBD Gah damn

❓ not once have u texted me first 💬 Idk who you are #tellonym tellonym.me/inkwraithvt/an…

@peachhonn Ahhhh

Dare dance with a feral beast~

@NicoENVT Its so cute omg

@SinfulSiii Hope yours is going good

@Inkwraithvt Goodmorning inkkkky 🥰🥰

Goodmorning sinners 💜

@Blazingoth I cant blame you you do have a nice one

i shake my ass in front of the mirror like 10 times a day

@REYCALL1 Uhhhh

choose your fighter