Eighty

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it's kinda funny still being in the work group text chat fur the job I just quit, and now I get to comfortably watch my old boss yell at my old coworkers from a distance, hahaha

@SmuttySkunk dry me off and get me blankets,,,,,,,

@ItsEighty You get your butt back inside this instant, or so help me! 😱

maybe i'll get sick

@SmuttySkunk that's very sweet, thank you.

@ItsEighty Take it easy for now and always know that you’re still loved and you matter, no matter how much you tell yourself otherwise.

This will be my last post on twitter for a while. I'm gonna delete this app until I feel better. I'm too unstable and sad and crying on the Internet gets me nowhere. Thank you for reading my posts. I'll return with art when I'm more stable again.

@AGrandTraveler I need a therapist haha

@ItsEighty Need a chinwag?

so tired of feeling sad and useless. I'm not. tired of berating myself, and calling myself awful things. I don't deserve that. I wanna feel better, and feel pretty and confident and useful and not pathetic and sensitive and abusable.

trauma will eat me alive. I have to do something

working two jobs yesterday was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my entire life. And I have to do that again on Monday. This is so hard and unfun, my mental is actually so goddamn low right now. And I still have to sleep so I can be awake for tonight's cover shift kms

@twistcmyk God, I feel this so deeply. Every single word.

@ComicsHawkins I don't want people to not enjoy things, I'm just not interested personally and feel bad about it. That's all. Don't be sorry about watching or enjoying something!

@ItsEighty Sorry but I saw it, I won’t bother you about it though

I kinda hate when there's a new popular show out, it just ends up all over my feed and I have zero interest in it, and the over exposure makes me wanna watch it less. Worse, I fear my friends are gonna watch it and I don't wanna watch it with them cuz I am a stick in the mud...

I feel bad that working has absolutely destroyed my mental health. It wasn't great to begin with, but now that I'm dragged into uncomfortable situations on a near-daily basis, I just feel like I'm so much worse. But I have to do this. I have to take care of myself and do more.

now that I think about it, I think this is why I try to overcompensate to "prove" I'm "cool" or whatever. I have so little faith in myself.

There's a lot of things that make me feel like I don't fit in. Certain aesthetics my friends love but do nothing for me, or worse, offend me in some way. Makes me feel like a bad furry, a bad gay, or a bad or uninteresting friend. I worry a lot about being a killjoy so much.

@ForcedPuns I try to stay in my lane, but stuff insists it moves into mine. Not much I can do about the algorithm and the excitement of thousands of people on my feed, or in my real life. I do try going outside of my comfort zone fur my friends, but... sometimes it's just hard.

@ItsEighty Trust me, I don't keep up with a lot of popular stuff. I like what I like and I'd rather do that than feign interest

@xXBushLuver69Xx yeah, like, I'm really happy that everyone has a new, cool thing to enjoy. I just am not interested, and I feel bad when it's kinda everywhere and in my face. Like I SHOULD like it or something. Thank you fur empathizing, it feels nice to know I'm not alone in that.

@ItsEighty Me too! I feel guilty when they start showing genuine excitement and guiltier when I still can't bring myself to watch it. :(

@P_Numerics Tuesday, I think. I just lost my weekend this week cuz no coverage at job 1.

@ItsEighty Jeez… when do you have a day off?

home from second job... everything hurts... had a small panic at the beginning of it, but I think I was just exhausted from only 3 hours of sleep prior to working again. But I got through my shift. Going to eat, take my medicine, and go back to bed fur tonight's job.

i'm trying so damn hard...