When Lauryn Hill said “it could all be so simple” she wasn’t lying. Reciprocity between two people who want something to work is so simple. It’s as organic as breathing.
It’s okay if you thought you were over it but it’s hits you all over again. It’s okay to fall apart even after you thought you had it under control. You are not weak. Healing is messy. There is no timeline for healing.
Also realizing that as I get older, I’m okay w/ letting other people down if that means doings what’s best for me. People pleasing really took a lot away from my emotional well being in my early 20s and I’m glad to have let that habit go.