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@absent_mf Come over.

You're like honey on the burns you inflicted.

I miss when I'd be glad to cry because I knew it made him happy.

When does a promise expire

"everyone else should get their eyes gouged out for looking at you" oh how I miss you Dad.

I need a tongue in my throat and a knife pressing on the outside my throat. I need rope irritating my wrists and legs, I need drugs dissolving in my gut, and bruises blooming on my skin.

I got a vinyl, played it. It is damaged. Ruined my day. Went back to the store. I returned it. Got a second one. It is also damaged. I am going to shoot someone.

Jealousy makes me want to flay my skin off im not jealous you're nothing to me you're nothing you are nothing.

I am aching for a hand on my neck desperately restricting my airways.

How do I become less self aware. Or less aware in general. Who'll give me a concussion.

to do, for how long, how, with the only goal to satisfy themselves. No compromises need to be made, it's just them, and their own interests.

close to, and especially with people they are trying to impress, or when they have something to lose, like status, or their intact ego. I'm deeply intrigued by the most pure and authentic side of people, the uglier the better. Picturing the sounds they'd make, what they'd choose+

One of the many reasons why somnophilia is so alluring to me is the element of authenticity. In the same vein would be watching someone through a hidden camera or secretly recording them. I think people have been conditioned to perform too much now days even with people they are+

I love the idea of traumatizing a guy just because he's so infatuated with you that he would do anything, even if he hates it, and you know he won't even talk shit about you once you leave because he's both ashamed of it and still loves you.

Sounds like a good bonding activity

Forcing him to keep going when we both want to stop so that we're both getting raped at once.

I admire the passion of an abuser.

@fleshlimb You couldn't pay me to reinstall those, they're a waste of time in my experience.

frankly the reason i hate dating apps is due to the fact that i hate socializing to that extent, and 99% of the people there are more than likely boring and/or too mundane.

my friend is trying to force me onto a dating app as a joke. you guys think the 100 yard stare and enjoying being hit will work? lmk

I don't miss it, per se, but I think about it often. About how I'd worship you until I burst into tears every night. How violently you'd confess your love to me. How I forgot what sleep and food was. How you made me believe in God while I was in hell with you. I lied. I miss it.