Cosmic Conch

I know what it is to be a muse & being amused.This is your lasting invitation to build upon any home of words I share, this is living...

Things fall apart to fall in place.

I learned an amazing lesson. If they touch (you know wtf im saying) you Leave

Im never turning back- and they can have those friends- I have many people who turned away from me and I never knew why....I did...they told me ...and I explained it away... I'm not made for war....I don't want to fight And I don't want to defend the bullshit I experienced

If your family- friends- and loved ones hear the phone calls and see the power control around cars and property and you can't fuxking hide it and your hiding it and your trying to fuxking explain it away like it's not fuxked up and your at the mercy of it

I'm done feeding something that will eat me whole and pitty that I was too weak to be anything else And I'm silent everywhere but here- because I know everything's being manipulated I shouldn't have joined that friend group- they have their bonds and they know it

And you still need your care- After all that you still need compassion and love... I cannot be both the soul receiving punishment and the God bestowing gifts

But how am I attacking with words if I haven't said them if I shout them to the void to avoid the beatings and lash outs and degradation but i recieve them any way.......

Do you want to know why I stopped writing Stopped creating stopped expressing How would you feel of every medium everywhere everytime you tried to write theyd be there- using it later- never listening never hearing the metaphors were to cope no I was attacking with words

We put ourselves in bad situations for love and our partners And we can take ourselves out And unbound ourselves from hurt We didn't deserve it Hair pulled- black eyes- glass shards- threats- control- for what? For what? Was it kinky afterwards? Did you enjoy control? Fuxk u

I could look another in the eyes... And I wouldn't want their love I wouldn't want their hate I'd want that moment And know this is before any of that I wouldn't try to figure out where I was or how we always got here I'd look another in the eyes And it wouldn't be the same

1. For a open snack bar thrown away to Floridian Flare You'd be surprise how many in a holler would know the same lucid But if you let her taste that power klink You might not make the night through it

This space....a place where my words arent given a damn by people that should have given a damn An audience for whome I don't nearly give a damn But I'll show you how I let these things damn me Mmmmmmmmm

I find myself speaking poetry in my head I realize it's not the muse but the audience that I'm talking to

a short movie. organicdmt.com

3 hour solo mushroom hunt with a packed lunch....only to be totally enamored by the forest floor

Tobacco drying.....while I was.at.work.today a truck and trailer crashed into our front lawn seconds before I was going to mow it.......sometimes I know that in my other lifetimes....I didn't make it like I did today. Many lifetimes One soul Stay strong

@ManifestinMyOwn We getting this soggy tear soaked bread damn right fam!!!!

Let's post something cool....here's the start...all organic inputs- worms- autoflower seeds I made myself- with help from the community. Day1

4 of 100 kale.plants im.doing a breeding project with, the goal.is a cold hardy. Winter persistent, and edible during all stages of life. The grex seed pack I got that spawned these had variegated parents so im.hoping to one day find those same phenos

Two months go by and the positive progression is insane....although the pain comes from working overtime non stop, for months..... The garden is planted, projects are rolling...