Kutsu

One year. One year ago, on this day, I would get a discord message that would utterly change my life. The greatest thing that ever has happened to me turned into the worst tragedy I have ever and will ever experience. She showed me what it was like to truly love somebody.

@davidduwaer @Matthew94873666 I dont disagree. Im not an omnipotent being, I don’t know if Im making the right decision. But I know Im making the decision that is best for me at this point in my life. This is a once in a lifetime tragedy, so there is no “next time” for me to reasonably worry about. All love❤️

@Kutsuuu @Matthew94873666 Willful ignorance is a bad deed in itself. If there *was* something you could have noticed in advance, if you'd meet again, you'd miss it again. Maybe you already know what went wrong, but you're not telling us, which is very understandable. Sorry for your horrible loss.

One year. One year ago, on this day, I would get a discord message that would utterly change my life. The greatest thing that ever has happened to me turned into the worst tragedy I have ever and will ever experience. She showed me what it was like to truly love somebody.

@theballadoffrog I totally get it if you want to block me to stop seeing it I understand it is very emotionally dense and sad

@Jahadzhi @Aliteralbird1 x.com/kutsuuu/status…

@Kutsuuu @Aliteralbird1 Tbf I’d argue seeing the results might actually help you gain better closure towards what happened

Y’all don’t respond to the mean comments ur just giving them the attention they seek 💔 just block and move on

@jugglebonez If I ever feel the need to, I have the case number and detective’s number. We are fundamentally different human beings though and I think we just process and view these things differently. All love ❤️

@Kutsuuu I had someone very close to me die and not knowing how she died ended up haunting me. I thought i was okay with that but in the end i deeply regretted not trying to figure it out sooner. I dont recommend choosing to not know just because you dont want to at this moment.

@puny2008 Realized after I posted I quoted the wrong sonny 💔 quote stays the same though

@Matthew94873666 Any answer on the regard of how she passed will only make me wish I did better in said regard, make me retrospectively look for signs and hate myself for missing them. I am at peace in not knowing.

@Kutsuuu Although thinking about it, appreciating them for going through those things might make you miss them even more and might not turn out well for you but however you interpret it it’s still a tragedy that you lost your partner

@devastation19gd You’ve been more wonderful to me than I can put into words. You’re a perfect human being who has given me many of my best moments of the past nine months, and I am unbelievably lucky to have gotten to know you. Thank you for being so understanding and supportive through it all ❤️

@Kutsuuu u are one of the strongest and kindest people i know and i will always be with u thru everything. i have known for a while how completely this has absolutely destroyed u and u still managed to provide me with one of the deepest connections i have made in a long time. all my love

@violeteuphowia Your words are both kind and moving. Thank you very much ❤️

@Kutsuuu "will you inherit my grief, if i finally choose to sleep? i pulled from the root, and found more blood this life can be way too much"

@Aliteralbird1 They ran tox screens and labs after her passing, but I chose to not look at the results. No answer I can get will help more than it will hurt.

@Kutsuuu Did the medics give the possible cause for her passing? I mean there's no way someone passes like that unless they've had some problems before

@AwesomeSundew Called her mom to get a key to her condo, found her in her bed. She went to bed one night and just… didn’t wake up.

@yttriumblue37 It’s okay. She was a hard person to love for most of her life, but every interaction, every experience she had no matter how small or how negative shaped the wonderful human I met, someone who I truly would not trade for anyone else in the whole wide world.

@Kutsuuu when i knew her, i want the best person, and i did end up pushing her away, i regret every single part of it, may she rest in peice..

@rikeloldaboss It’s okay. I know you had good intentions.

@Kutsuuu Oh I’m so sorry

@Caped_Champion You are very correct. It’s impossible to not think about the “what ifs” for something like this, but I will always savor every moment we got to spend together. That’s been the driving force that’s gotten me through all of this.

@Kutsuuu Ive found it helps to think about the good times you had, not mourn the times you wont have. It's like a mental gymnastics thing, but it helps me idk

@Tuffverses @rikeloldaboss I get it. The huge unexpected outpouring of love has made it easier for me to be a bit lighthearted about it. No matter what happens in my life, I’ll always try to make people laugh because that’s who I am and who I want to be.

@connorb0bonnr You too. I really appreciate it ❤️

@connorb0bonnr I love loving my loved ones ❤️❤️ hehe

@twollitown @rikeloldaboss It’s okay. I really don’t want any negativity under this post if possible and I know they had the best of intentions ❤️

@rikeloldaboss Sorry if that came off aggressive. But yea

@rikeloldaboss Bestie I found her body