Lightstreamfader 🙏🫠

5 years old ~ Rep because you don't know others' exist 9 years old ~ Rep because your cope of day dreaming is the only escape 15 years old ~ Rep because you think you're undeserving/can't access HRT 19 years old ~ Rep because you've grown completely dissociated from everything

@boymoderology 4tran being mean as if they wouldn't go on a cross to have surgery as pass like you

4chan's opinion of my FFS results

I feel everything ended a long time ago, I'm going through this endless limbo... Going through the motions in drift on a course bound to it's inevitable finish, I did this to myself but I don't cast the blame at my childhood self.. I did what I could as a child to protect myself

In fact it's the easiest thing to do, the emotional reaction of dysphoria in my chest (Which used to be a violent, traumatic thing surging through me) dies almost on contact whenever I'm acknowledged by anyone... I'm a barebones husk of what I was, but I can't even cry about it..

I hate that I fell down the dissociative rabbit-hole, at least dysphoria was a constant "affirmation" of what I was (all be it through acknowledgement what I wasn't)... I was unable to lie to myself then, today I've sunk so deep into repression.. It's not hard to let it take you

@suicidegirlsix8 Yep I'm as masc as it gets sadly

@Lightstream01 well shit

I'll never get surgery or pass on HRT again and that's okay

fishes when they get fished out of the water🎣🎣🎣🎣🎣🎣🎣

@UnickUTD @litteralyme0 "Taste the meat not the heat"

@litteralyme0 Leigh Arthur Allen was the Real Zodiac killer so many evidences pointed at him its just hard to ignore, the incompetent detectives & cops of 1960's, 70's & 80's bottled it BIG time This MF hated women the most, he was narcissistic loser who attacked on couples in isolated places

submission from @forskinquotes

Long haired Tobey Maguire photographed by Bruce Webber for L’Uomo Vogue (2000)

@gamunch48 Me core

@Lightstream01 19: rep on hrt

5 years old ~ Rep because you don't know others' exist 9 years old ~ Rep because your cope of day dreaming is the only escape 15 years old ~ Rep because you think you're undeserving/can't access HRT 19 years old ~ Rep because you've grown completely dissociated from everything

Hoods which I used to love to use to mask now make me more dysphoric by highlightng my skull and bone structure

Which Assassin's Creed is best?

I'd have killed for either of these experiences, when I was I would pray I would wake up as a woman or grow up to be homo sexual.

Both easy mode compared to our experience growing up

@apollyon_255 I didn't mean to come across as unaccepting of her, I just sort of curious

@Lightstream01 not everybody knew they were trans straight out of the womb, unfortunately

@charliehonx Yeah I would guess this is the actual anwser

@Lightstream01 Engagement bait

@apollyon_255 I guess I just never identified as a gay or straight "male"

@Lightstream01 ??? she's a straight transfem who lived part of her life as a gay boy, how is that internalised anything

View yourself as a woman, develop attraction to women, orientation and identity interconnect, fucking cursed existence