Lily

I'll let you choose who you wish to meet once more. I hope this will help settle your concerns about me.

Of course, I cannot offer a certain someone, as our lovely little doctor beat me there... But I can offer two other options, but I can only let you speak to one. I apologise.

If you do not want to see me, I can at least offer you some sort of compromise. Something that may soften the blow here... I'll lend you another voice, much like I did before.

I hope that the day will break again and you will see the sun and know, despite everything, a new day has started. How absurd I must sound, I apologise-

I hope you can forgive me someday. But I hope you can forgive yourselves above all else. That after everything is done, you can find a reason to smile even while you sit amongst any potential rubble.

Life really is what you make of it at the end of the day- as long as you have the ability to think, you can convince yourself anywhere is a paradise.

But really, there's meaning to be found in everything.

There are so many possible ways things could've turned out, so many ways things could have fallen apart- countless things to account for. I thought that somewhere in there, there must be something meaningful.

In that way, I was just like her at the end of the day. Maybe we're just two sides of the same coin.

I just thought I could make choices that mattered, I thought I could I could find something that would stick- something that would lead to a better outcome. But everything I tried just seemed to fall apart.

Maybe this whole time my input has not mattered one bit, it's just personal opinion at the end of the day. I can understand what'll happen to an extent- but at the end of the day, everyone is terribly unpredictable. I should've had more faith, perhaps.

I suppose perhaps it doesn't matter. I'm not sure in the end if we really could get a 'best' outcome, that sort of thing is subjective.

I've also been ashamed that I could not give my input this time. It appears a certain someone was too intent on you choosing your own path. I wonder if you're happy with the choices you've made?

I did not mean to deceive you, I just wanted you to listen. That's all I've wanted from the start. But I apologise regardless.

I suppose I just assumed you would not value what I had to say now you know the truth of what I am.

I apologise, it's been a while hasn't it?

You silly, silly boy.

There is no need for us to act. We are already facing the most terrible fate of all.

We are simply suck where we are, stuck in time, we cannot grow, we cannot change, we cannot be a part of this. We are frozen in one time, she will never accept the future- so it becomes unattainable for us.

What a silly thing to bring up. Neither him or me are implicated, this isn't about either of us. If 'we' even count as different. There is no body for us to kill, don't be blinded by your wistful optimism.