Shapexifterr - forced recovery

★彡[ꜱʜᴀᴘᴇꜱʜɪꜰᴛᴇʀ’ꜱ ᴛʜʀᴇᴀᴅꜱ]彡★ [mostly wieiads]

My life isn’t fanatic as it is but I can make it less miserable. I wish yall the best

I’m gonna leave for awhile. I want to improve my life. I know the reality is, I’ll suffer mentally. I’m prone to it. But I can fix what I can. I am so so behind in calc because my mental state prevented me from learning. I can’t put my entire future at stake for some shit cals

@STARREXIIC Party hat guy is my sleep paralysis demon! His name is Bob

@embersbreeze Mood. But yeah, give it some time!

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@embersbreeze That sucks. Dw tho, it will go back to normal. It’s just a side effect of the ed and once your body fully stabilizes in recovery, it’ll be consistent!

Why tf is my body suffering again. I’m eating. Ik the exercise doesn’t help but I deadass started to shake like mad after my run and could barely walk.

@STARREXIIC I know you don’t want to. But I am so glad you survived. It’s yet again proof that it’s not your time. Everyone wants you alive, even the universe does. You DESERVE to live and live a happy life free from the ed and everything.

i fucking failed. i cant believe it. im supposed to be gone. everything was almost over until my dad found me and bandaged me. i knew i shouldve waited longer until i knew for sure that everyone was fully asleep or deeper. literally anything to have sped it up by a few seconds.

@jasxcals If you’re suffering mentally and/or physically. You are suffering, I assure you. I promise u are valid jas. You deserve recovery and the best

lmaooo it was 1am when i wrote this and i should have worded it differently but i‘m talking about people (me) who‘s lw was still a healthy weight so it feels like our (my) lowest weight wasnt "a sick body" 😄

I still feel horrible often. I know the depression and stress will still be there. Esp due to my mom. Which is probably why I’m so adamant on overworking. Still, recovery did grant me one less issue 😭

Ok, so I semi-recover and kinda fix the food aspect of my life. Only to replace it with the urge to become an absolute workaholic and sacrifice all sleep and rest to exercise more, excel at school and hobbies, and get a job… maybe I wanna prove myself idk

@jasxcals You are so real for that 😭

charging my apple watch at work yay

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@jasxcals It is skinny. Also dw. My lw was deadass like 17.6-18. I never lost more in 5 years. Everyone’s ed manifests differently. You are valid and you are skinny

@LiminalSub11482 yeah but i mean everyone‘s lw is like bmi 10-14 while mine is 18.9/19 like my lw wasn’t even skinny 🙁🙁