Marco
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I started doing cocaine about 7 or 8 months ago. It started off at festivals with my friends or nightclubs, but I’m now doing it daily for the past 3 weeks or so.
I knew from the second I used cocaine that it was my drug of choice. I smoke weed daily, I’ve used MDMA, ketamine, 4MMC and a few others, but none ever clicked with me the same way cocaine did.
I work full time and have a good relationship with my family and friends, and I don’t know where this addiction has come from. When I’m not high I don’t crave it, but the second I do a little line or bump, I can’t stop. I’m doing about a gram daily, sometimes more, sometimes less.
It’s not really affecting my life too much—I still go to work, I still see my friends and my family, and no one knows about my addiction. My biggest problem is nighttime, where I can’t put down the bag. I work a manual labour job with an early start, so it’s not at all sustainable to be taking cocaine late at night.
It’s currently 3am as I’m writing this, and I’m up for work in about 2 hours.
I feel like I’m losing control of my life, but at the same time I feel happy throughout the day when I’m not using—but also empty. I don’t even know how to explain it. It’s like one minute I’m inside my head thinking about how much I hate this drug, what it’s doing to me, and how much I want to stop. Then the next minute I’m happy, joking around, full of energy. Then I switch up again and start thinking about railing a fat line when I get home.
I don’t know what to do, how to break this addiction, or how to feel about it. I don’t know how to stop justifying it and telling myself every night that it’s my last time, and then going straight back to it the next day.
I’m using about a quarter ounce a week, and if I go out to party on the weekend, I’ll easily go through a 3.5 throughout the night.
I don’t know what to do. It’s fucking me up, and I’m just stuck in this vicious cycle with no way out.
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bro wht drugs do i need to take to stop feeling depressed and how do i get them if i’m hypothetically underage
#drugtwt #suicidetwt
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brooo is there ANY COCAINE DEALERS IN UTAH😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#drugtwt
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